things are better if i stay

2008-03-02T22:18:00.005+08:00

Here's the Reason,

I've told myself that these two years in Mj would be the time when I strive to stretch and challenge myself. Its going to be really fruitful, in all aspects, and when I leave, I shall have no regrets.

That was rather sudden and random I suppose. But like they love to say these days, "Begin with the end in mind." And since school has started officially (I cannot seem to register this), I shall like to begin proper.

Im starting Netball training tomorrow! Gosh, I hope I will be able to survive it at the very least, considering my current not-so-fit state. I will I will I will survive! Luckily, theres Charmaine! (:

Truth be told, Im only looking forward to training tomorrow. There will be around 5 periods break and honestly, Im dreading it. Im going to get to know my classmates better during this time and get past the awkwardness. I will I will I will. Last week was really bad, I felt so lost. Thank goodness for Steph, Bahiah and Humairah. They're awesome! :D

'The Leap Years' - Based on a novella by well-acclaimed writer, Dr Catherine Lim, the story talks about a young Singaporean girl having chance upon her special someone on 29th February. She decides to base her intuition on an Irish leap year tradition that no man will refuse any request of a lady and invites him out for a date. Together, they embark on a romantic journey that spans over 12 years, meeting only thrice in 12 years, on the leap year. The delightful draw being the leap yearly meet-ups is sure to entice the special someone out there in all of us.

Would you go to such extent in the name of Love?

2008-02-28T21:35:00.003+08:00

Its time to adjust again. Sighs.

Orientation 2 is over. I really did learn alot from this experience and Im truly grateful for this opportunity. I will miss Triton! The OGLs have really bonded and came closer these past few days, I will miss these times.

For now, its over to Atlas. Funny, I have been in Yellow (Ixora), Green (Gardenia), Green (Triton), Yellow (Atlas) houses. HAHA.

Anyway, Ive decided to join Netball. Simply because that is why my passion lies and I really miss the games. Trainings wont be easy but its okay la right. I mean FB training isnt exactly easy either HAHA! And I feel weird playing with an equipment ahahaha loser I know. :D

Theres Sneakers training tomorrow over at MGS! YAY! I realised today that MGS is somewhere near SJI/SCGS that area. Which is near the detention centre that the terrorist escaped from. I guess I'll be seeing alot of guards around tomorrow then. My, the idea of an escaped terrorist is really quite scary. It seems quite surreal, doesn't it?

Which reminds us then, never to take things for granted. Like in this case, no one would expect such a thing to happen in Singapore but it happened anyway.

Man, being in a new class, surrounded by new people made me so miserable today. I was being such a emo phreak, haha, I was so irritated with myself. Im not exactly very sociable you know. I miss s501, my small cosy class. And I miss my Cedar uniform, gosh!

Tomorrow will be a better day. Smile Mu and to everyone else who is feeling miserable too. SMILE! (:

~~Whyyy do I feel this way. ):~~

2008-02-23T21:05:00.002+08:00

Im happy that Singapore won the bid to host the Youth Olympic Games 2010! :D

Im sad, disappointed, frustrated (grrrr!) that I didnt get my first choice subject combination.

Im excited for Orientation 2 on Monday! Go Tritonnnnnn!

Im tired cause Ive been rather sleep-deprived these past few days.

Im rather anxious about certain things.

Im confused about some other things.

Wow, can someone feel so much at one point of time? I guess we can.

2008-02-17T14:53:00.010+08:00

And the Hearts all over the world tonight,

The last week had been a really good one! :D Im really happy cause I caught up with alot of people these past few days.

Valentines this year was different of course. It wasnt as hyped-up as it was in Cedar HAHAHA. Man, those times were really crazy! :D But nonetheless, it was still fun. Of course, the thing that I really looked forward to was dinner with my 4i lovelies! YAY! Went to our favourite haunt at Suntec. Was quite suprised to see a long queue when I arrived cause it is usually empty. But then, it dawned upon me that it was Vday afterall HAHA. Bet the couples were cursing us or something cause we took up to 10 seats HAHAHA! :D But whatever la right.

I just realised then that I really like gerberas! So yeah, thanks Sus for your red one! :D I went home really contented! And my mum was the first one to rummage through my bag of goodies! HAHAHA, as usual. (:

Anyway, to the 4i peeps, Ive emailed the photos to yall (:

Friday was juniors' match against SCGS. They won! :D Man, I think they have really improved alot. Their game is really fast and solid now. But then, I also realised that I dont miss the competition pressure at all, cause it can get really overwhelming, especially for those on court. It doesnt help if Weili is screaming at you from the sidelines HAHAHA! :D

Yayyy, Im so proud of my pro juniors. This Monday would be their crucial match against RGS. It would be a tough one, cause yeah anything can happen. Too bad, I cant go for it. ): But anyway, I dont mind either one winning cause RGS is like our friend kinda thing HAHA! In fact, they were supporting the juniors on Friday. Its a bond between Ms Chng's schools, I suppose. (:

And due to that 'bond', we have the Sneakers club! (: Pity its all the way at MGS, at night some more. Luckily, its on Fridays. HAHA, Ive persuaded my mum to let me go for it! YAY! Something to look forward to! :D

On an entirely different note, my kneee hurts bad! Yeah la, silly me went for the physical and conditioning session during PE without wearing my guard (forgot to bring). And then, the next day, we were fooling around playing street netball at CCAB. It felt fine you know, until yesterday morning when I woke up. Damn, it was hurting so badly the entire day. Still is, anyway.

And my Mum went, "SEE LA! STILL WANT TO PLAY NETBALL!" ):

Pain, PLEASE go away! HAHAHA. If not, the Mum would ban me from going for Sneakers. ): Actually, I dont care la, I guess I'll still go. I'll remember my guard and hopefully, the pain will somehow disappear by next Friday, yay!

PAE period is ending. Tomorrow would be the last day. Last day as o8S501, last day going to school with Marli and Tunn Yuan, last day seeing some people I suppose. I dont want to think about it laaa, but I will definitely miss some people badly. ):

But tomorrow, the nephew and niece would start 'camping' over at my house in the day, since its the end of my sister's maternity leave. Yay! Cause I missed having them greet me so enthusiastically when I come home from school, HAHAHA!

The 21-months old Wizard Mika'eel and

almost 3-months old Princess Aliya! :D

Cute siaxzzxz! Marli says they are potential heartbreakers. HAHA, I think I agree. (:

I just had a haircut and my fringe sucks! BOOOHOO! Thank god theres such things as hairbands and clips! (:

Hmm, this was quite a long entry and I want to watch The Leap Years!

2008-02-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

A real deliverance,

I need to really sit down and get started on my Lit essays.

Seriously.

2008-02-08T16:19:00.001+08:00

Let us sing the Birthday Song for

NISHANTHI & AZIZAH! <33!

Nish: My fellow classmate from Sec 1 all the way to Sec 4. :D We've been through alot together as classmates, fellow OALs and of course, as friends! Remember, BE NUMB! HAHAHA! I LOVE YOUUU! <3

Azizah: Im #24 and you're #23!!! Hell, you used to drive us crazy with your never-ending worries before we get our exam results. (: You owe soooo many people ice-cream okay HAHAHA! I miss all your funny nonsense please! (:

HAPPY 17TH TO THE BOTH OF YOU! YAYYYS!

Yayy, I love holidays! (: Its good too that my nephew is staying over for a couple of days, so I can play with him all day long. He's turning 2 in a few months time. Is that fast or what?! And watch out, he's a potential soccer player! Seriously, he can really kick (soccer) balls!

Do you think I should trust our local postal service? Damn, Im really scared that those Vday gifts would get lost in the mail. Hmmms.

On an entirely different note, I REALLY miss Netball, ohmygosh. HAHA, I cant wait for NSL to start. Then, we can troop over to Toa Payoh Sports Hall frequently and watch our ouxiangs play! HEHEHEH :D!

Okay, theres lots of things to doooooo. (:

P.S. I got a red packet from my Aunt HAHAHAHA! But I aint no Chinese HAHAHA. According to Tkt and Steph, Im a one-quarter blooded Indian! WOOHOO! :D Okay inside joke. LOL.

2008-02-06T20:21:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :D

2008-02-04T20:39:00.001+08:00

Pensive
–adjective
1. dreamily or wistfully thoughtful: a pensive mood.
2. expressing or revealing thoughtfulness, usually marked by some sadness: a pensive adagio.

That was completely random, dont you think?

But then again, I believe that there is no such thing as randomness. To me, a 'random' thought is always triggered off by something, consciously or not. So you cannot say that it is totally random right?

Ive been increasingly pensive these days and I have no idea why.

I think its due to the fact that I miss Cedar so damn much. So much so that I keep comparing the present with the past. This isnt beneficial of course. If I continue like this, I will never move forward.

Transitions are tough, right? You might think that I have settled down. Physically yes, but as I just realised a few days ago, the case doesnt seem to hold emotionally. I need some time. I will be fine, really.

Man, I feel slightly better after letting all that out. (:

On a lighter note, I had my very first Chemistry test in Mj. It was quite an experience. We were totally racing against time. It gave me an adrenaline rush, haha! Anyway, I don't think Im expected to pass, so I don't really care, hehs!

I cant wait for the CNY break. Im truly lazy. (:

I miss alot of people laaaa.

2008-02-03T15:01:00.000+08:00

OGL Camp was awesoooomeee! :D

Seriously, I had alot of fun. (: Annnd Group 6 won both the MMM and OSC, HEHS. Well, the whole purpose was to try out the new concepts that will be used for O2. MMM was less tiring this time as we werent chionging all the time. Still we managed to complete all 8 zones, thanks to the 3 'congratulations' card that we got, allowing us to bypass the games, saving time! After all, it is a 'Game of Luck'! (: But then, I doubt we will be able to be so relaxed in O2, what with the introduction of the Trump Card and all, but I still look forward to it!

There was Night Walk too! Ahh, it brought back memories of the recent Netball Chalet night walk, where the juniors seriously scared the shit out of me with the momok-ish get up. (Btw, the Momok doesnt refer to the nickname that Nair gives me okay. HAHA) It was really scary, eventhough I knew it was them idiots, I still wanted to run away when I saw the 'ghosts'. Anw, thanks Fadh! She was the brave one who pushed open the cubicle doors cause I was too cheeeken to be able to do so. I admit I was expecting someone to be crouching behind those doors, waiting to scare us. HAHAHA! But in the end, there was nothing laaa. (:

Slept late at around 1.30. But at least, we still got some sleep. Once, in the middle of the night, I turned over only to see Lyana staring right back at me HAHAHA! Gave me a shock okay!!

You know, I absolutely dislike meal times during ANY camps. Its not the food, its just me. HAHA. Cause I always end up wasting alot of food and I get so miserable trying to eat. Damn, how I suffered so much during our Sec 3 6D5N OAC camp, where we had meals 3 times a day HAHA. Eh, but Im not anoxeric or whatever shizzz okay, I still eat! (Alot, in fact!) :D

HAHA, so the camp really made me look forward to O2 now! :D YAYYYY!

The past week has been a rather 'busy' one. Im glad for it cause it made me feel like as if school has really begun! I had my first Floorball training too, over at Valhall last Thursday. It was near Kallang Netball Centre, so I was really happy AHAHA. I saw SHERMAINE KUKU too! I was like "Shermaine! OMG!" HAHA, she had table tennis I suppose.

Speaking of KNC, juniors are doing really well! Im sure both divisions will go reallly far. (: Too bad, their matches are all the way at NUS, so I cant go for their matches. I'll make sure I go for their finals though and their Nationals matches at KNC, which will be nearer. (AHEM JUNIORS! READ THAT: FINALS AND NATIONALS! HAHAHA) :D

Okay, theres a bloody Chem test tomorrow. ): Hardcore siaaaa.

2008-01-27T18:44:00.000+08:00

After much deliberation, Im relieved to say that I've made a decision. (: I've decided to stay in Mj.

Well, a big thank you to everyone who had to endure my countless "OMG HOW NOW? IM CONFUSED! @#$@%!" outbursts, the inevitable long faces that appear when I start to contemplate and the many sighs and concerns that I had expressed over the past few days. Cause obviously then, you guys are my friends HAHAHA! :D

Well as time passes by, circumstances change, and so do your decisions and directions.

Okay, its all over. :D Lets just make the best out of the situation. (:

On a lighter note, it was Road Race yesterday! Im happy now cause it means less running for PE. HAHAHA loser la I know, but I really hated all the running! :D After that, Triton 2 had dinner at Seoul Garden. Not everyone turned up though but I still had a great time. (But my 30bucks! Ouch.)

(Around half of the OG with some of our OGLs - Hui Jing, Pamela, Dickson and Daniel.)

This was on Results Day. We were at Potong Pasir bus stop after breakfast at PP Macs. Man, I miss that place! Quite a few classes were there, its like as if we have all forgotten that the school has shifted. :D

This is a random photo I found on Charlene's friendster. :D HAHA, it was on this day that I busted my right knee, and it was never the same again. Look at Evelyn (I think) hugging the fence (HAHA!), Keat Li smiling at I dont know what/who, Jasmine crossing her legs (LOL!) and the 2 dumbs (Charlene and Anooja) emo-ing. I was just talking to Weishan. I think we were erm observing how Crescent was playing. I miss those times. Sighssss.

Im hungry. Byezzz.

2008-01-24T22:05:00.000+08:00

Well done 4I! <3

(Mean Msg of 7.9 and 1st in Lit babyyyyy! :D Woohoo!)

Well done Netballers! :D (I think we all did really well)

Most importantly, well done Phenomenal Class of 2oo7! YAYS!

Im proud of my class really. (: Im thankful that I got what I wanted. (: Im contented! Im glad that all my friends did well too!

Now, its time to make a decision. I think I wont register until after Road Race. I really am in a dilemma now.

Whatever, I shall think about it tomorrow HAHA. Cause thinking about it gives me a bloody headache.

P.S. Thanks everyone for the good luck wishes, hugs, assurances, SMSes and what have yous yesterday. :D

2008-01-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

Contemplating of fates,

So yes, its tomorrow. Wow, I dont know how I'm supposed to be feeling right now.

I just hope that it will be a happy and gay reunion for all of us. It will be good for all of us. (:

Im having a mass Primary School MSN convo now! HAHA shiok.

Okay, Im just glad that Im seeing the lovelies tomorrow. But tomorrow will call for some serious decison making. ):

This entry is rather disjointed HAHA.

All the best everyone! :D

2008-01-20T21:29:00.000+08:00

It makes you feel,

So, the CPU's been repaired and my computer's okay again! But everything gone laaa. 4 years worth of photos, documents, proposals, chat logs etc. Basically, concrete proof of my 4 years in Cedar. Gosh, that would need some time getting over. ):

Damn technology, sometimes.

Its okay though (I think), I'll get over it. Now, I know, save all these digital photos in a CD or something. Some advice for you too! (:

Tomorrow is B Div's first Zonal match against Fairfield. We played against them on Valentine's last year. (: That was one hell of a crucial match, cause it determined whether or not we would end up in the Top 4 positions. So juniors, ALL THE BEST! <3!

& I dont know how to do my Physics tutorial, mwaha. (:

2008-01-19T10:40:00.000+08:00

There is no Try,

WHOO my brother's such a Genius! :D Thanks to him, Im blogging at home now. Over the past week, Ive come to realise how heavily dependent I am on the Internet. When my sister's laptop crashed the other day, I 'crashed' too HAHA. Like I feel so restless without being able to go online. OHMAN, this is a bad sign. Its called Internet Addiction and I better stop it. ):

But I think all the documents/photos in the old computer will be erased too. Heartbreak! Thats 4 years worth of memories if you please. ): ):

Since the last time I posted, we've been on a permanent timetable. Now, I truly appreciate the 2 week timetable that Cedar had. You know a different one for an odd and even week. Cause now, with one timetable, the routine repeats itself weekly and not fortnightly. Well, its not much of a diffference but still, there was a little bit more variety THEN.

ANDDD PE SUCKS. ):

To someone who hates/abhors/detests long distance running (thats me!), PE would suck for now. All because of the upcoming Road Race laaaa. Nevermind, just 2 more sessions (: To think I used to look forward to PE so much. Key word: 'Used'. :D

Rumour has it that O level results would be out next Friday. Lets cue a major freak out. Everyday, I would think of my impending doom at least once. And then, I would ask myself THE QUESTION again. Let's see,

If I get 6 points (that would be a miracle), I would cry buckets! Tears of joy you see.
A good result that I would be satisfied with would be one that would qualify me for Vj. And to be safe, that would mean a raw score of 9 and below.
If not (CHOY!), I just hope that I would qualify for Mj's 4H2 programme, which means a raw score of 11 and below.
If not that too (CHOY CHOY!), I just hope that I can still stay in Mj.
Anything worse than Prelims, I would kick my own ass.
Truth be told though, I do not wish to get anything above 10 points cause I promise you I'll be really upset.

So there you have it! Concrete proof of my expectations! Should I go conkers on Results Day, someone please kindly remind me about my own expectations okay.

OKAY, I shall stop it. I should enjoy one week in Mj, before I start worrying about results again.

Yesterday, I got a piece of happy news. But Happy News just worsened my dilemma.

Anyway, all zee best JUNIORS for the tournament! Cdiv started well with a win! (: Bdiv WILL win this Monday. :D TOP 4 TOP 4 TOP 4! Too bad I cant watch them cause NUS is sooo far.

In retrospect, its really amazing how far Cedar Netball has come in the past few years. When I was in Sec 1, I still remember how Netball was regarded as one of the school's lousier CCAs. Our batch was quite promising, getting Top 8 for PESS and things like that, but I guess we crashed during our C div tournament. 2oo6 was when we made a major breakthrough, with both C and B division teams clinching a spot in Zonals Top 4, a first in many many years. I must thank our seniors, cause that achievement really got the ball rolling. It was after that win that we started to see that we have the potential, that we can be threat to others. That we started believing in ourselves. You can really see the difference during trainings. There was like this new spirit and attitude in us. That now, our goal is not just to get past the Zonal's first round but to try and break through into National's Top 4. I am really glad for that turning point. Cause now, at least we dont think of ourselves as losers and neither do others.

(South Zone Prize-Giving Ceremony 2oo7)

Be there, Cedar Netball, be there.

2008-01-07T20:52:00.000+08:00

Cause you've got to give and take,

I hate lectures. ): Cause they make me really sleeeeepy. Reminds me of the Chemistry lectures we used to have in Cedar during the exam period, mygod, I could barely keep my eyes open. :\ But then again, I cant run away from lectures. Even Poly has lectures. So too bad Mu, deal with it. ):

Anyway, we're doing Flowers For Algernon for PAE Literature! :D The full version, not the short story one that we had for Os. (: Of all stories, it had to be this one. I really disliked the story cause half the time Im busy pitying Charlie Gordon, HAHA. TSK, really. So, I take a really long time to absorb it cause I have to get my emotions and feelings right blablabla, and now I have to do it again, haha.

Physics was erm okays HAHA. Kamal and I were falling asleep in the front row. Damn, I miss Ronnie Goh please.

Okay, I should stop rambling on this wavelength cause its making me feel sad. Like how I miss everything so much. OH wait, I miss Aunty Lily so much!!! Ahh, crap.

Thank God though for the good people of Triton 2 and S501. Yeah, Triton 2 is spilt up into 2 classes, but we still meet for lectures and during breaks. Today, everytime Chun Kiat opened his mouth to talk, I will laugh at him. HAHA, he's super funny (to me). And never try to get a straight answer out of TKT (Kim Tien) aka the self-proclaimed Chinese-Malay mix (FAKE ONE LA!). So, the day really passed faster, thanks to classmates and OG mates. (: Am definitely looking forward to tomorrow's lonnnng break. Better enjoy all these luxuries while I can. :D

Oh, I think Mj's library is cool, HAHA.

I still dont know what CCA to join. Help, please?

~~Inner conflict - Why oh why oh why?~~

2008-01-06T18:07:00.000+08:00

Because all good things come to an end,

Awww man, lessons/lectures/tutorials start tomorrow. Anyway, my class is o8s5o1, tgt w Steph, Lina and Kamal from my OG. Well, they're the only ones that I know of. The temporary timetable's quite weird. Like Tuesday, my first class starts at 12.55 and I still have to report at 7.30 (!!!). But first lesson tomorrow would be Literature, yay I like. :D

I seriously wonder how I will manage with the many breaks in between lessons. Not that I dont like them, but Im just the sort who cant do work during breaks in school. HAHAAH. Like during the Prelims period, instead of doing work during the free periods, I would either 1) sleep, 2) drag my chair to someone's (who isnt doing work also) table and talk and laugh or 3) do some work for only about 1/2 the time (not even being completely focused at that). HAHAHA. But mostly, its option 1 & 2. Unless if its Mdm Lum's Amaths hw laaa, you know how she wld go around and check before she goes through the answers.

Talk about Mdm Lum, I do miss her! Okay, Nish and Zhiyin, dont kill me! I wont steal her from yall MWAHA. I really do hope I get good results for Amaths cause I do not want to disappoint her for she never gave up on me. In fact, I really must thank her for being so 'scary' cause its due to that I worked so hard on my Maths (and because I really wanted to improve la). She's scary but really cute.

Remember this?
Mdm Lum (to Syikin): GIRL AH GIRL AH GIRLLLL! (rambles on and on)
HAHA. The whole class burst out laughing please, poor Syikin. (:

Man, Nair told me that their tournament is starting in around 1o days time. I remember this period last year. We stayed back nearly every day, alternating between runs/light trainings or proper trainings.

Aye, I dont know what CCA I want to join! HAHA, Im really quite lazy to go through all those fitness stuff again but I want to join sports. So yes, too bad for me. Gosh, fitness trainings sucks! D: I want to try a new CCA too but you know what, I think I'll still end up going for Netball, mwaha, cause I miss playing the game and the carnivals etc. But should I try as a defender or shooter? HMMS.

Yeah, Im really quite jumbled up regarding certain issues now, GRAH. I shall try not to think about it now. When the time comes, I shall make up my mind.

Random: I can't wait to see Marli tmr cause I got lots of things to tell her. MWAHA.
Random 2: I can't wait for Wednesday cause then I can call Nair cause I got lots of things to tell her. MWAHA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM! <3!

2008-01-05T13:21:00.000+08:00

MJ Orientation o8 is over. ):

(I'm sorry if this is going to bore you to death HAHAHA :D)

1st Day
Marli and I thought we were going to be late HAHA, I ended up in the same bus as my brother despite leaving the house like 15minutes earlier and this current Sec 1 Cedarian tried to follow us to school (HAHA cute man, bet she was running late). Okay, but we told her we werent going to Cedar, haha poor thing. Saw alot of Cedarians at the interchange, and gosh, my heart ached. ):
Anyway, my OG is Triton 2! (Triton is one of the 5 houses) My OG was quite large with over 25 people. Didnt talk much. Had 'The Meridian Prophecy' with icebreaker games and all. Finished quite late and when I went home, I was nearly dead.

2nd Day
Well, it was much better. (: Had 'MMM', some amazing race kinda game. Shit man, we all thought we were going to die, running around the entire place. Triton 2 had to go Clarke Quay, Harbour Front and Somerset. The worst part had to be the one when we had to run from Wheelock Place all the way to Dhouby Ghaut. Cause we were only allowed to walk intra-zone, we couldnt take the train from Somerset to Dhouby Ghaut. And obviously, we ran instead of walked cause we were fighting against time HAHA. And then, Triton became the 1st house to settle down, which means having all the 6 OGs back in the school hall, so we won a bonus 1ooo points. (:

3rd Day
Yesterday was 'Wet and Wild'. Yeah, water games rock!! :D By the end of the entire thing, I was all muddy, no thanks to one particular station. Was wet initially too, but it became really really hot mid-afternoon, so I became dry. And the mud dried too, so yeah, my legs were caked with dry mud. Triton won the Finale and the entire Wet and Wild. (:

After bathing and lunch, we prepared for campfire. I was in the 'choir', HAHA! But it was damn fun cause we had to make funny noises to go with the performance. My OGL, Daniel was some sort the in-charge for the choir. HAHA, I think he's effing funny please. And his voice is damn loud, like really. Then, campfire! With no fire la (: Held in the school hall. The performance went really well (I think). Cause the Choir people couldnt watch the performance cause we had to look at our conductor, Donovan (got conductor okay!). But judging from the response of the crowd and our OGLs during the performance, I guess it went well.

Mass dance! I was quite a mess cause I couldnt rmb some steps. Did the couple dance with Lina. HAHA, some boys from my OG best ah, stood in one line behind us and watch people dance! HAHAHA. Then, they were about to announce who won the campfire item, 5000 bonus points okay! It was between us and Phobos, and for one moment there, I was really scared that Phobos would win cause I thought their soccer ball effect was damn cool. But TRITON WON! YAYY! :D So the 5000 points pretty much sealed the championship for us, which we eventually won, beating Phobos by a mere 800 points. I love it when they announce things like this, then you can scream and shout and jump up and down, HEH! :D

Then, had house dinner at downtown. My OGL, Wee Liang was scaring people like Kamal by saying that they couldnt catch the last train HAHA! Aye, in the end Lyana and I still had to cab home haha!

Monday, lessons begin. Only 3 other people from my OG are in the same class as me. In fact, only 2 other guys in the entire cohort had the exact same subject combination as me. I was lucky that they even opened a class for my combi.

Well, Im currently quite torn. But really, if I go anywhere further, I will die cause the days are really long and school ends late. And I kind of like the culture in MJ. (: Well, we'll see how the lessons go! And the O level results of course, hurhur.

But anyway, I had tremendous fun these past few days :D Really! To Triton 2, you guys rock! :D Really, most of the girls are enthu kias and eventhough the boys were really quiet, they're really funny with their random matter-of-fact comments! We're going to be split up for classes,nyeh. Just when I thought we were getting to know each other better. ): To our OGLs: Shini, Rashidah, Hui Jing, Dickson, Daniel, Wee Liang and Pamela, THANK YOU for encouraging us on, making us laugh and things like that. Orientation wouldnt have worked w/o yall (:

Random: Anyway, Triton is green house. I was quite 'oh man!' initially cause Im in a green house again HAHA! BUT, I love Triton now okay, green or not! I think Im quite lucky though cause I always end up in the best houses HAHA! Like Ixora was top 2 in Sec 2, Gardenia cheerleading was champs in Sec 3 and Garde was champion house last year! Yeah, I still remember last year's sports day! Like for nearly every event (except for the Sec 4 ones, HAHA thats us!), Garde had people in the Top 3 positions. And we were damn enthu, with house mascots from my class, leading the house in cheers, and so we won! :D Man, I miss those times.

Random 2: The song for Couple Dance was 'Accidentally in Love'! I rmb 4i's Buzz@Canteen performance. Hilarious man! (:

I cant wait for next Friday! Dinner with these people (and more).

Haha, this was during 50 laps! (: LOL, look at Lichu! :D

2008-01-01T13:51:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL TOMORROW! :D

2007-12-31T21:18:00.000+08:00

In Retrospect,

First of all, HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST BRUDDER! (: <3!

Man, I cant believe a year has passed. 365 days ago, on 31st of December 2006, I dreaded the New Year because I thought that it was going to be a horrible year, with Os and what not. Im terribly wrong in that aspect. 2007 WAS AWESOME. :D

The year started with the South Zone Netball Championships. (: I had to lead the team, and needless to say, I was really afraid. What if we dont produce results? What if I failed and let everyone down? Zonals was a really long period and it was extremely trying both mentally and emotionally. I was struggling with my play too. Sometimes when I felt like giving up, I would tell myself that I cant, because leaders dont give up. They have to fight till the end and they have to be the ones keeping everyone afloat. It was based on this principle that I build on my mental strength. I could push myself further during trainings and push my teammates too. Indeed, Im are extremely grateful for this experience for it was through this that my mental strength grew, and this was one of the things that saw me through the year.

We then proceeded to the Nationals. We could only settle for Top8 but for me, this is a great achievement already as we made people notice us. Made them know that we were a threat, a force to be reckoned with. Oh, there were many heartbreaking moments of course HAHA. (: When season ended, I was really miserable. For there would be no more trainings and things like that. To CEDAR NETBALL, Thank You for the wonderful year. (: I learnt alot this year and it has really changed me in many ways (for the better, I hope). I will definitely miss training with yallll. )': To the juniors: JIAYOU for the upcoming season. TOP 4!!! <3!

Then, CCA ended. Time to focus entirely on studies. NYEHHH. However, I still felt that 2007 was a happier year than 2006. (: Despite the crazy pile of mock papers to complete every day, the depressing Lit lessons (HAHA!), the constant nagging of the teachers ("I'm sure yall know this by now. What? You don't know? How many weeks only left to Os!" HAHAAHAH!), lack of sleep and mannny other shit, I still enjoyed the year. AND ITS ALL THANKS TO MY WONDERFUL CLASS! (: Lessons are bearable thanks to some random outburst by some random person. The misery of it all is overlooked as we laugh at some funny teacher. The burden is reduced as we know that we are all doing it together. The study sessions, when we laugh more than we actually study. Asking each other questions, encouraging that down friend, pushing one another, freaking out before some paper (during Prelims), laughing our asses off before the papers (during Os), and then before we all know it, the dreaded period was actually over. And in retrospect, I really do miss it. ): HAHA, I forgot to mention the PE lessons that we look forward to SO MUCH. To 4i: I LOVE YALL LIKE SIAO. (HAHA) Its really thanks to yall that I survive the year. I didnt cry at all this year, over studies I mean! Which I think is really amazing. (: I would never forget this wonderful class. (:

And I am glad that my relationship with my family members are fine too. (: Not that they werent last time LAAA. They had afterall tolerated my nonsense during the Os period. Cause I brought home all my frustrations, not wanting to affect my other suffering counterparts, HAHA. But they were cool with it, thankfully. Im glad they didnt pressurise me in any way and just left me to work as I like it. (:

And to everyone else whom I had encountered this year. Thank you for making my 2007 a good one. (:

And now its time to move on to a new year. Im recording all this down, cause you know, sometimes even your memory fails you. ):

I guess the thing that I fear most in moving on to a new chapter is losing my friends. ): Loss of some friends would be inevitable. But I am sure that as long as I put in the effort, my friends would be mine for a longggggg time. (: Every relationship would need commitment and effort, and commit I will. Cause really la, my friends are precious! (:

Wow, I make it sound like as if 2007 had been a perfect year. Well, for it to perfect is impossible but Im just glad that I was happy most of the time. (:

School is starting in 2 days time. Totally new environment. Im excited and anxious at the same time. But I'll get through it. (:

My wish for 2008? I just hope for a good year, not just for myself, but for my family, friends and the world at large. May it be full of smiles for everyone cause everyone deserves a happy happy HAPPY life. (Yeah get that? HAPPPY!)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! Cheers! :D

2007-12-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

Eager Anticipation,

Well I guess 'school' started earlier for me. Yesterday, there was a subject combination briefing over at Mj. First choice would be H2 Maths, H2 Chemistry (what the hell -.-), H2 Literature and H1 Physics. Hopefully I get it cause Im not keen on my second choice at all. HAHA.

Actually, it was nothing much. Just that it was painful (on the ass) to sit for approximately 2hours plus of talks. And they talked about Orientation too! Which Im eagerly looking forward to because it sounds like beeeeg fun!

But hoho, its time to make new friends. :/ My inter-personal skills sucks okay, HAHAH. I shall try my best. Lets just have fun and I'm sure I will start talking to people naturally. I mean its impossible not to talk to anyone when you're having fun, right? (:

After that, I chionged home. Then chionged over to Nicole's for the swimming date!!! Oh yay, I've been looking forward to it since forever. :D Sadly, Sus, Sher and Sarah (ohmy the S-es!) couldnt join us in the water. ): Nish and I tried learning how to swim. Its amazing how so many people THINK I can swim, and swim rather well at that. HAHA. I concluded that swimming is really a good form of exercise. (:

Time spent with 4i peeps is always worth it. I really do miss Cedar. Esp 4i, the NETBALLERS and the OALs. ):

Random: I bought a rather large haversack for school and you know what, we dont even have textbooks. BUMMER SEY.

Random 2: JESSICA ARNANTA TJUNG! Yesterday we ate pizza at Nicole's and I got reminded of you. I MISS YOU LAAA. ):

Maybe, just maybe, the next post shall be about 2007 and the year ahead. (:

2007-12-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

HELLLLO!

Ok so I got into MJ, which was my first choice so Im happy. Marli is in too! Same course also, so Im even happier cause I'll have company. Anyway, MJ is pretty accessible from where I live and I can even go to school with my brother, whose school is nearby. Im quite excited to start school but I really dont like first days. ): I still remember my first day in Cedar (HEY SYIKIN!). :D

With all the chaos about the PAE posting results, I got reminded of this reallllly bad dream that I had concerning O level results. Needless to say, Im glad it was just a dream, cause in it, I was disappointed with my results and generally the school didnt do well. I had no idea why I dreamt about O level results HAHAHA. Oh whatever, it was just a dream after all. (:

Im at my sister's alot these days. So babysitting it is. (:

I need monehhh cause I want to buy books. ): Oh standing inside Kinokuniya feels like heaven (and hell). Heaven cause there so many good books on sale and hell cause I feel like buying them all HAHA.

Anyway, Esther and Sus! Thanks for the company the other day! <3

I dont know when I'll blog next HAHA. After KL maybe. Okay whatever, this is so random. I shall go watch Heroes online.

2007-12-08T13:09:00.001+08:00

Among those missed (:

Yay, I so cant wait for the 27th, swimming at Nicole's! Yeah, Ive been pestering her about it since errr the last time we went swimming. HAHA! So, Im glad Im gonna see all of them again. :D

You know, I really hope I get into MJ for PAE, cause I know I wont be lonely there. Quite a few primary school mates heading there too. (: Talking about primary school, I saw Zhongda at Paris Ris the other day. (: Well, he was my science lab partner. Msged Lyana and it suddenly struck me how much I miss my primary school friends. My last 2 years in EVPS were the best. And I really miss those times and the people who shared those good times with me.

I told myself once that I dont understand the hype surrounding Stephenie Meyer's books. Whats more, it was all about this vampire, Edward Cullen. So I was telling myself that I wont read it cause I dont like fantasy stories. But the other day, at Pasir Ris library, where it is quite pathetically stocked (in my opinion), I saw this familiar book on the shelves. It was 'Twilight'. So despite myself, I borrowed it and okay now I understand what the hype is all about. Its a good read really. Meyer's writing is really effective because it makes the characters seem very real. It helps that the central issue of the book is about love and relationships. That said, I think Edward Cullen is a real charmer, vampire or not.

Sometimes I wonder why is there so much truth to this saying, 'To err is human, to forgive divine'. Random I know. But take a look around you and you will see how apt this saying is.

Blah, Im supposed to be going for the junior's training. But Im such a lazy ass. Any my knee's acting up again. Its so weird because when Im not running and jumping around, the pain appears. I thought that it would somehow recover over the mugging period when I do not exert much stress on it but NO, its worse now. I guess I can no longer ignore it. :[

Yay SEA Games is on now! I dont know why Im so into the local sports scene. But I think its because I wish to be part of it in future. (: Not as an athlete though. Something else. :D Meanwhile, go TEAM SINGAPORE! <3!

2007-12-06T20:31:00.000+08:00

Am lazy to blog. (: But one thing,

THANK YOU juniors for the really great farewell. Words alone wont do my feelings justice. Love yall! <3

I missss many people. ):

'Absence makes the heart ~~grow fonder~~ ache.'

2007-11-26T20:25:00.000+08:00

Check this out:

Welcome Aliya Nisrina! (:

That is my newborn niece! (: So pretttttty, right? But zomg, you should hear her cry! Its damn loud okay. She's seems quite tiny compared to my nephew. But I think that was because the first time I saw my nephew, he was already 2 weeks old. Anw, she was born on the 24th of Nov, which was err, on Saturday. Poor kid la, her birthday is during the school holidays and she will probably end up as the first girl on her class register. HAHAH.

So yeap, have been going to KKH a few times these past few days. HMMS, I'm even more inspired to be a sports physiotherapist/sports psychologist now. I think being a doctor is really fulfilling but I tell you, you will have no life at all HAHA. Okay, for a truy committed doctor that is. But of course, the benefits (esp emotionally) of the job are priceless.

I still have a long way to go before I start working. Talking about work, I need moneyyyyy. HAHA. But its quite too late to start working. But nvm, I shall babysit eh. (:

COALs campfire was fun. But you know, I totally envy them for their AWESOME campsite at Changi. Its right next to the sea. And you can see planes flying over your heads every few minute. Yea, campers will probably find that annoying HAHA, but I currently have this 'obsession' over planes. I get damn excited when I see planes flying esp when I see them up close. Its so majestic. HAHAH, you can ask some of my friends. They'll testify. BUT, LAC is still home. Boy, I miss that damn place.

Well, there was a tinge of sadness when campfire ended. Like Nishanthi said, after this campfire, our OAL journey is REALLY over.

<3!

Will upload the campfire pictures and video another time. Netball chalet up next, it gonna be aweeeeesome!!! Okay, Heroes and Hantu Jatuh Cinta today! YAYYYS.

2007-11-20T19:53:00.000+08:00

Prom is overrrr. Okay, it was okay. (: Catwalk was diao but whatever, I got a balloon and flowers! (: I hated the lights during the last one hour though. It was making me dizzzy haha! But its damn cool cause it creates this slow motion effect. HAHA, now I know how they make people look wasted or like they were in a drug-induced trance. Not like WE were wasted. But you know, on television shows sometimes, they show girls like that. So all you need is a light effect.

Anyway, I'll upload photos another time. (:

OH, I must thank my eldest sister for doing my make-up! Totally freee yo! (: And my 2nd sister for lending her make-up! And my mum for buying some make-up just for me. (: It was quite funny. Cause I was locked in a room with my eldest sister so that my nephew couldnt disturb us! HAHA.

AHHH, I'm so bored now. Post-Os isnt exactly very exciting okayyys. I need to train again! But the juniors arent even training now. Thursday is LTC (or whatever they call it now) campfire. I wanna see the new campsite! Next week is Netball Chalet! CAN'T WAITTTT! After that, I'll rot again HAHAHA.

But Esther said she will teach me how to play the piano! (: Zhiyun and Marli learning the Korean languange! And Syikin the Japanese language. We shall go to Nicole's house and swim. (: And Parveen Nair, you're supposed to watch Game Plan with me. Anyway, some of us was supposed to watch this -

The fairytales of our childhood are pretty unforgettable. Still, have you ever questioned their inherent savagery? Wondered, perhaps, about the wise grandmother devoured by the blood-lusting wolf? Or about the lame boy limping futilely behind the town's children, as they followed the tune of the Pied Piper?

The Pillowman, by acclaimed Irish playwright Martin McDonagh, offers startling answers to - some - of these enigmas, while raising many more of its own.

The Pillowman won UK's Olivier Award for Best Play in 2004 and was nominated for a Tony Award for Best Play in 2005 in New York, where it also played to rave reviews.

With the twists of a thriller, and the twisted logic of a horror film, The Pillowman is darkly funny and surprisingly poignant.

A creative work that is quite unlike anything that you have ever seen before on a stage, The Pillowman will inhabit your dreams long after you have experienced it.

I wanna watch! 4I kids, anyone interested? :D After the Macbeth play, I'm more interested in theatre plays now. And I'm sure I wont fall asleep in this one. (:

I miss my classmates. ):

Anyway, Jessica Arnanta Tjung flew off today. ): Hey kid, takecare okay! You saw how so many people will miss you! We'll meet again really soon. (:

Well, Life's like that, isn't it?

/Edit: OH NO, I checked Sistic's website and I think Pillowman might have been fully booked until it ends its run. ): HURHH WHY LIKE THAT.

2007-11-15T18:29:00.000+08:00

Everyone knows that Os are over. (:

Didnt feel much after Physics MCQ. I was like, 'Huhhh. Its over. Hmms okays,' kinda thing haha! Unlike after Lit, when I was really over the moooon. HEH.

Anyway, 4I class chalet was a blast! (:

On the 1st night, we had the bbq. Mr Chris Chan came. And he got water-bombed! HAHA! He was like strolling in (as usual), and we were greeting him in one straight line. Then, when he came near, we attacked him. HAHA! The funny thing is he just walked through the entire thing and didnt attempt to run away or sth. -.- Oh, but he had his revenge ok! He went to the kitchen and took some water bombs, went up to the 2nd level and threw the bombs at us below. Anyway, nearly all of us got wet. Especially me! Cause everytime I attacked someone, the bomb would just bounce off them and then they would pick it up, and hit it on me. ):

Then, we watched DVDs! WOOHOO. It was quite fun, how we could laze around, just watching movies. Watched 'Bring it on' and Jay Chou's 'Secret'. Shermaine cried again during 'Secret'! HAHA. We slept damn late la, like around 5am? Cause we were busy laughing again when we finally went to bed at around 4am.

2nd day was spent at Changi Beach. That evil guy on the rubbish-picking machine actually laughed and smashed our sandcastle with his machine! SO MEAN, HAHA! And we made stones skipped! (: Then, we watched Titanic!

At this scene (the 'flying' one),

we went 'AWWW SO SWEET!' and things like that. And that Nicole was smiling to herself as she watched and I had to pinch her. HAHA. She was like totally dreaming! But you can't blame her la, cause Leonardo DiCaprio was (note: was) reallllly hot. :D

But anyway, I think the saddest part in Titanic was when Jack slipped away into the coldwater. As he sacrificed his life so that Rose could survive. ): HAHA like why cant they both survive right? HAHA. But nvm, thats true love, really. (:

EEPS ITS LIKE PROM TMR. Grahh, dont feel that excited now. Am like thinking about how the preparations will be like. I HOPE I HAVE A GOOD HAIR DAY TOMORROW. If not, I will die cause I'm going to do my hair myself (save money laaa), and if it is a bad hair day, I will really die. Yay, will feel excited tomorrow I suppose.

Shopping is physically and mentally draining. Seriously! Okay for me la (: I mean if you are like damn loaded then, its no problem. But I tend to be very conscious when I spend so I cant splurge even if I want to. And I'm damn picky. And afterall awhile, I will get irritated and I will be like 'OKAY HECK, LET'S JUST BUY THAT', and regret. (: AHAHA.

Rahh, I miss the netballerszsz! And I miss Netball too. ): Definitely not the long runs though MWAHA.

Okay, hope to be back with pictures! Tomorrow night will be good (:

2007-11-06T20:35:00.001+08:00

LIT IS OVER! :DDD

I will miss studying for Lit. Really! They're fun to do at your own pace, especially Macbeth. With all the quotes and endless possibilities and intepretations. HAHA, yesterday, as I was muttering away all the quotes like a maniac, it suddenly occurred to me that I enjoy studying Lit and that I will miss it after Os. HAHA, nvm Lit for JC then. (:

And now, I can read books (storybooks!) without guilt!!! :D I've been a good girl okay, I havent been borrowing books because I know they will distract me. And I'm going to buy a whole collection of books. Ohmy, I can while my time away (reading!) without any worry or guilt. The thought itself just excites me.

Okay, I sound like a nerd. HEH!

Theres still Chem and Physics MCQ actually, haha!

My sister is going to pop sooon! So exciting! (:

2007-11-04T22:31:00.000+08:00

For the next two papers its,

ON YOUR MARKS, GET SET, GO!

A race against time, together with your pens and (by then aching) wrists.

I can almost feel liberation. Its so damn near, but its still quite far. I shall wait patiently. (: Okays, SS and Literature next. My two damn important papers. Considering how my Physics went, I have to bank on Literature now. Well, even if I don't have to, I would really want to do well in Literature. I shall not treat it like an alternative subject.

Hmms, I like my current blog song. Its the soundtrack of this new Indonesian drama on Suria, 'Hantu Jatuh Cinta (Ghost Fell in Love)'. Its only into its second week but I love it. Damn amusing at times and oh, the evil guy is hot. HAHA.

But sometimes right I wonder, you know in those movies where two guys fight tooth and nail over a girl? And the girl just stand there and watch. Omg, that's so pathetic okay. The girl should stop them, and start screaming at the guys to stop. More dramatic, what! And she wouldn't come across as such a weakling. But hmms, how is it like to have people fighting over you (in a good way, I mean)? OVER you, not BECAUSE of you. Such flattery, don't you think?

Well, anyhow, see you people after Tuesday. I pray that our wrists and pen nibs don't break tomorrow. :D

2007-10-28T21:14:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be such a lonnnng day, ohmy, we can all die.

English & Emaths. Hopefully, no writer's block (its the worst thing that can happen), read your comprehension carefully, and give your all in finding answers and points for compre and summary, do not commit silly mistakes in sentence structure (the British people marking will be irritated for sure), do not be careless for Emaths, open your eyes BIG and look properly, do not be lazy to think about how to solve the problems (yes, I do that all the time, thinking about Maths questions can be boring at times).

Take note of all that Muhaina! And you would be fine, God willing. (:

Damn, its at this middle point of the journey when you feel like giving up sometimes. But I do not want to shed sad tears when I get back my results, all due to laziness and mental obstacles. This set of results will follow me for life (but not when I die), so no forsaking it. I SHALL NOT SUCCUMB TO THE EVIL VOICES AT THE BACK OF MY HEAD.

F OFF, I SAY!

Okay bye, our quest to get A1s start again tomorrow. (:

~~Damn, am I pissed. Annoying me like crazy, but whatever, its okay, it will over soon.~~

2007-10-26T16:02:00.001+08:00

Hello.

Os has been okay so far. No panic attacks (okay actually there was a tiny one before the Chemistry paper (: ), no tears. And Im glad for that. In fact, everyday, before the paper, a group of us would come early to revise outside the staff room. And laugh & laugh & laugh. :D Laughter is goood. So we wouldnt feel so worked up before entering the hall. Really, I think I was more nervous waiting for the MPH doors to be opened during Prelims. I'll miss those morning sessions! ):

Amaths was okay, for once in my life. Chemistry was do-able, haha, for once in my life again. GE was ohwells. Certain parts were tough and alll I can do now is to score as high as possible for SS. Theres still Literature too for me to work on. (: So, we're not down and out.

Next weeek dieee la, all morning papers. D:

Sometimes doubts about achieving my goals start creeping into my mind. But I shall push them aside. Its not even halfway through. And you know what sometimes, suprises do happen. (:

Okay, its going to be over soon. HANG ON HANG ON HANG ON. (: See you guys really soon!

&what cant kill me will only make me Stronger.

2007-10-20T20:33:00.000+08:00

Oh yay, I finally get that 'Rectangular Cartersian Co-ordinates' (as in the Amaths FYS) topic. Sounds so fwoah, but what the hell, its just Coordinate Geometry. -.- Yeah, I JUST got it, HAHA. Slow, I know, but whatever, I still got it, suckerrrrs!

WOOHOO, I feel so relieved now. (: Shall take a break and eat some pizzzzza.

Facebook is interesting. I shall explore it a litte, but not toooo much. After Os, then can. (Yeah la, EVERYTHING also after Os. -.-)

Speaking of Os, its this Monday. :D Something that we have been prepared for since we first stepped into Cedar, and the preparations intensify as we enter Secondary 3 and needless to say, its something we have been slogging our mighty asses out for the last few months. All the worry, tears, stress-induced laughter/fits etc. THIS IS IT.

I kind of look forward to it. I mean THIS IS IT. And I know, when I get into the exam mood, I will work even harder. But the scary thing is, I CANT SCREW UP THIS TIME. Cause theres no turning back, theres no second chances. So as you prepare, you will never know whether or not its enough until you sit for the paper itself. And when you sit for the paper, you either make it or break it.

Im feeling feverish. I must fight back. I cant fall sick now. Cause experience has taught me that its plain hell sitting for an exam, with a throbbing headache, runny nose and a hot forehead. And the outcomes are far from desirable.

And I shall try to stay happppppppy and positive throughout. Nothing shall bring me down. :D

SIX 6 SIX 6 SIX 6 SIX 6 SIX 6. (If you need any reminders, there I just gave it to you. (:)

HAPPY 16TH SHERMAINE LOU KUKU! :D
We shall go bag shopping after Os okay. You poor thing la, must study on your birthday. TSK. <3!

Haha, to all my friends and fellow comrades, GOOD LUCK. May we not need it (cause we will be so well-prepared!). :D Afterall, luck is only 1-5%! The rest is hard work. (:

2007-10-17T13:03:00.000+08:00

Yay, Ive uploaded the graduation photos. Shall email them to the relevant people this weekend or something. Haha, I realised we took alot of jumping photos this time!

Finally, yesterday, I went back to school. I was so :D to see the 4I peeps! HAHA, and I was relieved as I finally told Syikin, Sarah and Sher THE STORY. :D Annnd we ate pizzzzaaa! I shall go back to school tomorrow.

Its next Monday. Omgosh, Im rather excited. :D Excited cause its going to be over real soon. But scared too. But its okay, I CAN DO IT! I CAN ACHIEVE WHAT I WANT!

To all Sec 4s: ALL THE BEST! :D

Meanwhile, its back to my Amaths.

2007-10-15T18:05:00.000+08:00

Im taking a (rather long) break from Amaths. :D

I dont think Ill be writing that lengthy post just yet. Maybeee when I can finally upload the manymany photos we took during Graduation day.

IM GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW! :DDD! To study la, ass! I want to see certain people like nowwwww. Cause I want to tell them about this and that and everything else. (Must say in person, calls and smses dont work!) Thats why I cant wait. (: Its always fun studying with 4I. :D Ive been waiting for tomorrow since last Friday hokay, so don't deprive me any longer!

Funny, I was looking forward to the study leave. But now, I want to go back to school. But anyway, I think I'll be able to achieve more in school.

Its like in a WEEK's time, DAMN IT.

Its so surreal thinking about how its going to be over so soon (and how its starting even sooner!).

And its so sad that I have to spend the festive period mugging. ): I really don't feel the mood this year. I even got slightly annoyed that they were playing Hari Raya songs all day long. But never mind, despite the fact that I'm stuck at home, I still get the moneyyyy yo! HAHA, I know, thats not the whole point of it all, but I cant be bothered. I shall save it cause I foresee that I will need money to spend after Os.

I MISS SYIKIN, SARAHJ, JESSICA, NAIR, ABBY, LICHU, ZHIYUN, MARLI, ZHIYIN, SHERMAINE, ESTHER, SUSMITHA, NISHANTHI, ADEL,NICOLE and manymany other people. Study tomorrow please! ~~(Oh, and that person.)~~ ):

I MISS PLAYING NETBALL, I MISS OBSTACLES, I MISS BELAYING, I MISS LOCKING KARABINERS (very much!)!!!! Oh my heart ached when I saw them having refreshers or whatever the other day. OALs is an experience that I will miss alot cause I will not be able to experience such a thing everrrr again. ):

Shat, this is getting long. D: Goodbye. I need to get back to my TYS.

P.S. Phenomenal Class of 2007, lets work hard and achieve the best results Cedar has ever seen and will ever see!!! Cause we are PHENOMENAL, our impact should last for as long as possible!

2007-10-12T01:17:00.000+08:00

Well, today (actually yesterday), I graduated. ):

Theres so many things I want to blog about. I shall type out an entire lengthy post to serve as a reminder for me about the wonderful times I had in Cedar. Cause ykw, sometimes, even our memories fail us.

Buuuut I shall do that after I come back from KL. (:

Anyway, Os are like in what 10 days? WOW CUE MAJOR FREAKOUT. But ykw, when I feel like giving up, I shall read all the farewell letters that I got to get me going. Cause there's people believing in me, all the more I should believe in myself.

Alright, Im so tempted to blog now, but nvm, after the trip, after the trip.

I cant wait for next week. 4i kids shall study in school together the entire day (if possible). :D I love us (:

Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya in advanced. :DD

(Damn it, I feel that this post is rather strangely disjointed.)

Till then,
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Happy Mugging! (Im nice, I know. :D)

2007-09-30T19:01:00.000+08:00

So, you see we have so many books to read, papers to complete and so little time. Good luck to all, jiayou. Stay strong, be positive, and the results will be satisfactory. 100% now, lets blaze through our last lap. Till then,

<3 Muu`(:

2007-09-29T22:21:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Okay, this shall be my last post until next week maybe. :D

Anw, Prelim results are out. Im utterly disappointed with both Maths. I was like WTH when I saw the paper. I mean like after all my efforts into the freaking subject. -.- But its okay, I tell myself, theres still time. And I will do it for Os okay. Humanities were good, thank God. English was rather upsetting but well not totally unexpected so yeah. Sciences, haha expected la.

As for my l1r5, I wont tell you, nyehnyeh! Cause its not confirmed and theres all kinds of moderation and rumours about cut-off points flying around. So I shall just wait until the dust settles and see what happens. The only thing I can do now it to hope for the best.

If I said I was fine with my results, Im a big liar. My morale after that was at all all-time low. But Nishanthi and I decided to numb ourselves as they were giving out the results, and not get too emotional. So I guess I could handle certain blows pretty well. Afterall, the only way to go now is to go up up up and improve. Its always easier to improve than to maintain.

I guess the last stretch is always the hardest. Just like in a netball game, getting through the 3rd and last quarter is effing hell, I tell you. When I see how little time we have, I don't feel motivated, I feel even more discouraged. That was a few days ago. Im all geared up now. Okay at least around 70%, I guess.

I cant believe we're graduating in less than 3 weeks time. ): You know, when I have to wake up early in the morning and when we are trapped in a huge avalanche of papers, I find myself saying, "Omg, I cant wait for study break. Then, I can wake up a bit later. And they will stop chucking us papers." But the beginning of study break means the end of our 4 years in Cedar. That is sad. Really. ):

I wish I can stay awake longer. You know, like some people who can stay up until 2-3am mugging and then waking up at 5 the next day to go to school. Its unhealthy, but still I think its amazing. I cant never do that. But I wish I could, I need more time, you see.

Rollerblading with Cprawnies was fun. I feel so unfit, HAHAH. I couldnt even last two hours cause my feet was hurting big time. Hmms, shall start conditioning now. A healthy body translates into a healthy mind! (: And at least, when school starts, or when I start training again, I wont be struggling to catch up.

Okay see youuuuuu.

I'm missing this! :[

2007-09-22T17:32:00.000+08:00

It was just JC talks yesterday. Ohmy I think VJ's principal is really funny okay, hahaha. Well, now, Im kind of freaking out. As much as I say I dont mind staying at home for the first month, I still care you know. I mean I really dont mind, but I still care.

Hmms, whatever la, shall just wait for Tuesday&Wednesday.

Tomorrow, it would be exactly one month to Os. SWEEEET, not. Before Prelims, we made a pact to be so damn prepared for it we can slack the day before and it never happened. :D Okay, for Os, it would be okay!

But I have to file up everything before I can start. HAHA, I cant wait to start. Its gg to be an exciting journey. (:

Alright, lets hope the next time I blog again, I would have decided. ]:

2007-09-20T21:03:00.000+08:00

And when It comes tapping on your shoulder, you have to go.

When Mr Chan called yesterday, it all felt so surreal. I thought he was joking, I was even silently willing him to laugh, to giggle, to do anything at all to give the game away. But apparently, it was not a game. It was real, no matter how surreal it seemed.

Today, we went to pay our last respects to Mrs Ng. I just cracked when we stood, observing silence infront of her coffin. I didnt go up to see her face for the last time, I didnt think I would be able to take it. My mind was blank throughout, but the tears just fell.

Funny how Death impacts the Living. Its really true isnt it, this common phrase "You would never truly appreciate a person until he is gone." It takes a death, a tight slap in the face to bring realisation to the living.

After this, I truly realise how people just come and go. How Life is so unpredictable. How things can change in a blink of an eye. But will I now live Life with more vigour? Will I always remember to appreciate people around me before they are gone? To all those, I cannot answer. Its difficult to realise all these, but once we do realise, its so damn easy for it to slip away again. So damned easy.

To Mrs Ng, thankyou/sorry/goodbye. Its too late for all of these, but this is all I can afford to say now. You will be remembered, always.

2007-09-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

And when It comes tapping on your shoulder, you have to go.

2007-09-16T13:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY KAKAK JAH! <33!

Well yep, Happy Birthday to you! (:

I cant effing wait for Tuesday!!! End of Prelims. Shall slack my ass off for a few days after that. Then the first thing I shall do would be to file up all the notes that I dug up for Prelims. They're everywhereeeee! After each paper, I will just chuck them aside and dig for notes for the next subjects. Hee, so its a pile now. But theres Physics mock on Sat. ):

Ahh before that, I still need to mug for Lit. Its okay, I love Lit! :D

But Mugging is difficult with a runny nose and cramps. ): Its okay, I can do this!

See Yall after Tuesday! :D

2007-09-15T13:29:00.000+08:00

Oh yay 7 papers down, 1 paper to go.

Hmm, Im in a state of fear and anxiety now, over the results la, haha. I swear I felt like crap/shit/sai/dung/or any other words along these lines, yesterday after Physics Paper 1. I was a wreck before the paper, ykw, really scared and nervous. Cause of what people said, that it would be tough. Well, I certainly expected the worst. But maybe I shouldnt listen to these talks next time, the effects are far from beneficial.

Literature paper on Tuesday. (: Its been long since I last touched Macbeth and Sense Of Belonging. I still dont like Limits of Trooghaft okay, Yuck!!

My mum said its okay if I dont want to go to school for the 1st month. My sister said that if it were her, she would not go to school, hahaha! My mum said I could rest for that 1 month. I feel better, knowing their reactions. But it depends on my results la so yeah.

I cant wait for November. The end of exams, big or small. Mika'eel's new sibling will be born. (: And endless fun, not restricted or bound by any obligations like studies!

But hey, theres still a long way to go. :D

Okay I have a date with my Literature texts now.

GOOOD LUCK 4I Lit students! We can do it! Remember the day when we swallowed the Smart Pill - according to Mr Sng and Mrs RW. HAHAHA, I still think thats funny. Remember how Mrs RW praised us during the presentations. Remember Mrs Foo's constant reminder of Analysis[x infinity] and her smile in class. Remember all this and then you will know that actually, its all in us somewhere. They have seen it, so it really exists! Have confidence&faith in yourselves, everyone! WE CAN DO IT!

WE MUST, WE CAN, WE WILL! <3

"Wherever you go, I will be waiting. Whenever you're cold, I will be there. Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright."
- Gone So Young/ Amber Pacific

2007-09-01T21:56:00.000+08:00

50laps@ Cedar was AWESOMEEEE! :D

Abby and I cabbed to school, we reached just on time kay! (: HAHA, when this cab driver took this shortcut through a forested area instead of the usual route, we freaked out silently at the back. But nothing happened la duh, it was really a shortcut.

Did I say that I LOVE 4i! (: That declaration on our shirts ytd was enough to show it all. Loved it! They didnt play Accidentally In Love so we couldnt dance again. ): But the memories stay man. Lets go wildddd and start dancing after our last papers.

(Though I was quite amused that they had the song Lemontree but not Accidentally In Love. Lemontree is ANCIENT please. HAHAH!)

To the 50 Laps Runners (thats like 33km, crazy shit!) : Mr Goh, Mr Tay, Mr Chan, Mr Lee, Mr Din, Mr Aliff Lim and Evelyn Teoh, KUDOS!!! Heroes (and Heroine, haha!)!

Shows the power of the Human Mind. It overpowers and conquers all physical barriers.

"What the mind can conceive, it can achieve." One of the quotes that Evelyn Teoh gave to us long ago.

2 and a half papers down. Languages were okay. Chem was such a major screw up, mwhaha! The only consolation I could offer myself was that at least I wasnt the only one who screwed up. For once, I thought I finally understood Chem, but it had to let me down. Amusing.

But Im not really disheartened. All the more, I will be spurred on to do better in my Physics and Amaths. Theres still another half of the papers anyway. Jiayou everyone! Dont be discouraged, a tough paper would be good in certain ways. It brings us back down to Earth if you have been floating around Up There, for one example. Just be sure to brace yourself for the hard impact of the crash though. (:

I want to watch 5Nations! Ahh, I remmber previous years when I could afford to watch every single match that Singapore played in. I miss NSL too! Gawking at pro players, going to Toa Payoh Sports Hall and all that. Dannnnng it. I want to watch Msia play too, they have darn pro players. Its okay I shall watch the finals. (:

Oh Sher, Esther and I watched Secret by Jay Chou yesterday. It was worth it. I didnt expect the secret to turn out like that, yknw the whole twist in the story. Thought it was going to be some cliche thing, ahah. Someone next to me (I wont say who), was sniffing twrds the end. Thought she had caught a cold but when the lights came on, JENG JENG JENG, she was actually crying. HAHA! (: Okay Im such a Meanpok! To think I cried during Spiderman 3, hahaha! All in all, it was a good movie. (:

Im gonna make sure that I catch 881 by Royston Tan. :D

Okay byeee. Good Luck to all for everything coming up. Stay Strong! <3

2007-08-26T12:37:00.000+08:00

The Game has begun.

4Ignite - All the best! We will not let anyone down cause we are zeeee best!

Heres to anyone who need it : 1% of Good Luck. The other 99%? They are already in your pockets - its your own Effort.

I shall be back with good news.

<3

2007-08-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

HIATUS.

Till Slim Prelims are over! Then it will be Fat Os! Okay lameee.

I shall think of Parveen Nair's deal and do welll. I shall think of VJ and do well. I shall think of rocking good class MSGs for 4I and do well. Aye, just think only for what right. Must do.

Declaration: I hate Chemistry. Eeks! Never thought I would hate something more than I hate Maths.

Okay, till then, goood luck everybody!

I MUST, I CAN, I WILL!
I shall do it the Cedar Netball way. <3!

And so can you... (:

2007-08-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

As it draws nearer, she finds herself in this tight grip. She tries to run away. She tries to escape. But will someone please tell her that its not worthwhile. Cause no matter how hard she tries to run away, she will never be able to evade it. Ask her then to face it. Someone, anyone. Cause she can't seem to do it by herself.

Poor Her, don't you think. Such an asssss.

Hmms, I just look at my Spongebob Helium Balloon and I smile. I look at The Message and I smileeee even more. :D

Thank you, never knew how much difference it had made, did you.

'Obstacles are just scary things that you see when you take your eyes off your goal.' - Some person.

Right you are, person.

2007-08-03T18:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SIXTEEEEEN NICOLEEEEE! <3 and me too! (:

Okay, I must declare:

I just had the BESTEST birthday ever! I bet Nicole did too!

Thanks to the Netballers + Lee for that DAMN LOUD song in the morning, Jessie and Charlene for the cow (its damn cuteee!), Krystal, Syikin and to all those who wished me. Anw, would like to thank 4I especially!

THE SUPRISEEEE! Omg, Nicole and I were being such idiots!! We followed Sarahj and Esther to j8 after school, thinking 'Oh lets have lunch and walk around or sth!' Cause Sarah just asked whether we wanted to go j8 so we just said yes. And then, Esther claimed that she wants to check out Baleno as it was having this sale which was going to end at 3.30! So, we went around j8 looking for the shop cause Esther apparently has forgotten where it was. Then, we had to go toilet la and then we checked like so many shops blabla. And all the while, Nicole and I were like 'Esther! Hurry up la, your sale is gg to end alr!' Then, we were hungry. (Actl, we were supposed to eat first lor! But Esther had her 'sale' what.) So, we went to the ground lvl and we saw Swensens! And Sarah was like 'Eh lets eat here eat here!' And Nicole and I were like 'Oh yay, okay!' And Sarah and Esther just went in! Without even waiting to be shown the seats. And then we walked in, and we saw blue people who suddenly started singing the Birthday Song. AHAHA!

So yeah, we were still like HUH?!! kinda thing when we walked in. Omg, so kuku leh! Everything was actually fictional! Like the sale and stuff. LOL! But thanks thanks thanks! Apparently, they thought the suprise was busted cause they thought it was too obvious with people asking around in class. Nicole and I even walked on Marli and Yiying at the balloons shop! Their excuse: 'Oh, we're studying here. And we're buying chocolates (cause they sold that) to eat.' I remember thinking like since when can you eat chocolates in the library.

Hahaha, okay Nicole, we're officially realllly deaf and blur! :D

AND THANKYOU JESSICA ARNANTA TJUNG! (: Im going to kill you on Monday, but I know you meant well, so no harm done!

Ayeee, what a day to remember! And our buzz @ canteen performance rocks man! Hahah, I enjoyed the practices much! It was only yesterday actually. We were totally like zi-highing or something by ourselves there. Funnn la.

Okay, Im damn exhausted la. Thank god its the weekends! SLEEEEP! It has been a long week. Next week only has 2 working days! (: And oh, Prelims are coming. AHAH, what a big ~~joke~~.

Okay, once again, thanks to all for the memorable day! LOVE YALL! <3

2007-07-29T19:53:00.000+08:00

Hellllo alll! :D

Right, I managed to refrain myself from blogging until the weekends. Big deal laaa. Its not as if I blog that often nowadays. Mwahas.

Rollerblading on Friday! Awesome, we've been looking forward to it the entireeee week. I hate being the first class cause then we would have to wait for the alumni room to be opened before we can get the blades out. That means precious minutes wasted! And the Aroma was wow. The moment I walked into the room, I was knocked over by the overpowering Stench (thats more like it!). And I had this sudden urge to puke. But whatever man, it can be washed away.

The lesson passed by really really quick! ): We learnt the heel stop. My group had Moon, and we had to push him like we push a stroller kinda thing. And Nishanthi damn loser please!!! She fell right behind Lewis when he was attending to Germaine who fell down earlier. Not on purpose la duh! But it looked like as if it was! AHAHAHAH we couldnt stop laughing. Should have seen his face! tsktsk.

Aww, next week will be the last PE lesson. ): I hope we can still continue PE and blade ourselves or something. I will dieeee if there is no PE at all.

August is coming! Whoo I love August. (: But its Prelims month! -gags. Its less than a month away. COME ON ALL! I have my goal in sight.

Mental note: I must ask Weili about the sports management course in Polytechnics.

Hmms, I shall do my overdue SOB essay now. Oh, Mr Sng was pleased with us the last lesson! :DDD Finally, man. We felt so satisfied. Totally made my day. (:

Its really things like these that spur us on. That pull us back up when we are falling over. That make us realise that all efforts have not been in vain, we just have to wait a while longer to see the results.

Im coping well, I think. Though I dont know whether Im mugging hard enough, thats why. :D I hope not to lose my head. Thank God for 4i. I just realised that its these people that are keeping me sane. And some others of course. (:

Random: Why do people go to all lengths to believe in something that they want to believe in, but it may not neccessarily be true. Conversely, why do people go to all lengths to deny something that they dont want to believe in, despite the truth that it actually holds.

To my jnrs (yall know who yall are): Cheeeeerr up! We are worth much more than that. (:

Hey there, I can't explain this feeling.

2007-07-22T14:22:00.000+08:00

RHD o7 is over! Many photos, well, if you want them, msg me or tell me or whatever! Dont think I will upload all of them because they are toooo big!

Well, this year's concert was good. But the atmosphere was just different la. Dont know what went wrong there.

PE's been and still is the only thing I look fwrd to in school. The last lesson, it rained, so we skated (such a word?) around the courtyard. FUN! Esp that long chain thing. HAHA, well, lets just hope it wont rain the next time.

Its 40+ days to Prelims. You wouldnt believe the amount of work they're giving us. They just throw papers after papers at us. Im sick of all these papers. Ohwells, it will be over soon soon soon.

Anyway, Aliff won Anugerah! YAYS!!!

Lets hope this will be my last post till next week maybe? (:

I want the Deathly Hallows!

2007-07-15T19:17:00.000+08:00

Ahh, I havent been blogging. (:

Anyway, school's been really fun. Its partly because theres a growing no of mad people, their brains warped by stress, I suppose. So, its pretty entertaining. The mad things people do sometimes. :D

Every week, without fail, 4I looks forward to PE. BLADINGGG! Really fun! Nishanthi, Esther and I cling to each other! HAHAH theres a reason okay. And we all tease Zhiyun when * is around (go figure!). AHAH! 50 minutes is really short but we have to make do with it huh.

So yesterday, Sarahj, Shermaine and I went blading at Sher's hse. To practise you see! And I was such a loserrrr please. ): They went down this long slope and I stayed on top. Sher was screaming though! Mwahaha! Cause you see, I am an amateur, compared to them, and we werent even wearing guards la! That's why I was so scared. And it was in a park. GRAVEL PATH!! With trees and bushes around (it was a nice park really.) I've never realised how much I appreciate the school's basketball court. Hmms, seems like it will be a long time before I can do that, I cant even ROLL without feeling apprehensive.

But the thrill of it is just awesome la. :D

Got my cheongsam already! Bought it. Thanks Sarah for bargaining! (:

Hmms, homework homework. And RELATIVE VELOCITY shall be the death of me. Mygoodness. I found out that I can be reallly blind when it comes to angles. Though, I must admit, RV is a relevant topic in life. LOL.

I WANT TO WATCH HARRY POTTER 5!!! AND I WANT THE BOOK HARRY POTTER 7!!! :DD I cant wait to read the book really.

RHD is comingggg. And National T&F!! YAY, so exciting! I didnt go last year, I shall make sure I get to go this year.

Okay till then. Maybe next time, I'll have pictures. HAHA!

Keep in check your sanity.

/EDIT: OMG I dislike the song Graduation. It makes me sad. )': "Can we survive it tomorrow?"

2007-06-30T18:48:00.000+08:00

The first week of school was such a dragggg. It was okay actually but we were totally swamped with homework every day. Oh whatever.

The only thing I was looking forward to yesterday was PE. ROLLERBLADING! (: Yays! I didnt fall at all yesterday. AHAHA! Though I still cant get up on my own. And I was actually more of walking on blades than blading itself, as Nishanthi pointed out. HAHA LOSERRR. But whatever, its damn fun! Its like the only fun thing in school now. :\ And Zhiyun did some cool ballet thing on skates as SarahJ pulled her. It was at high speed! The whole class just watched them la! And even Mr Chan just stood there watching although I heard him muttering, "Be careful, don't fall down!" AHAH I think he's so funny.

Anyway, Shin Yeong has left. Goodbye! ):

Cast aside, yet again. I dont know which one hurts more. Whatever it is, I can't believe it actually happened again.

Thank goodness for this long weekend huh. Next week will be a busy week.

Yknow, the 50 laps at Cedar thing? Has anyone realised how dark it will be when the run starts at 6am? HAHAH. Please la, when we set up the rockwalls at 6.3oam, we can barely see properly. 6am is worse. But actually I kind of look forward to it. Should be fun. (: But its on the first week of Prelims. lol.

Playing with emotions equals to playing with fire.

I HOPE YOU REALISED.

2007-06-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

Okay blogging.

Sorry Charlene! I cant upload the damn photos! Will try another day. Sad, the photos with Tingjun are blur. ):

OMG, Im going crazy doing Lit. This SOB essay thing. Okay relax, it can be done! ~~:DD~~

Its so easy to pretend to be optimistic, isnt it! Mwahaha. Okay, that was genuine.

Oh one more week to school reopens. Im 50-50 for it. I dont want to start the entire routine again. But then again, I can only study much in school. So, Im looking forward to a productive term ahead, cause needless to say, this holiday was wasted. But, I shudder to think about how much work we will be buried in, how much stress we will have to handle with, how much screaming there will be (inside my head) as we count down to Lovely Prelims.

Its just 9 more weeks (thereabout) to Prelims. Since, there will only be 8 weeks of lessons in Term 3. NINE! Thats like 63 days. Wow. I so enjoy freaking myself (and YOU) out. (: Will I get to go to my dream schoooool for the first month (come to think of it, I saw it the other day, and the building doesnt look appealing. LOL.). Ohwells, Ive planned what to do! I shall seize that 8 weeks!

& ~~hopefully~~ Proscrastination ~~will~~must take a backseat. Cause seriously, its not welcome. Not now.

And 4i's SIX-POINTER CLUB will be in full force. AHAHA! The 'club' is the entire class, mind you.

But I shall not let slip other important things. I shall not be so caught up in chasing that six points that I forget to enjoy and appreciate my last months in Cedar. I WILL NOT. Trust me, you shouldnt too. I will not regret when this chapter finally closes. NO NO.

Ive been having nightmares (mild ones) lately. Its not those monster kinds la. Yesterday, I dreamt that we were having sports day at Bedok stadium (of all places, right?). And it was OAC day too. I was running late. I only had 20 more minutes before I had to go met Safiah. And I realised that I havent packed my OAC bag. So, I was rushing and panicking and I was L A T E. I dont know what happened next though, cause my mum woke me up to accompany my eldest sister for her check up. HAHAH!

My point is, my dreams these days, Im always rushing in it. Its a nightmare for me, cause it feels so real, and the feeling when you are rushing and panicking and you know you're not going to make it... The thing is, Im 'rushing' even when Im asleep. Its no wonder I constantly feel tired.

***

Shinyeong's leaving for Korea permanently. And thus, we had a 'farewell party' over at her condo. I had fun. For me, it was kind of sad though. Its well, the last time, she will be laughing together with us. Ohwells. Anyways, we played blind mice and taupok and some other games. Ann is a power mice. We had to literally run to save ourselves. Taupok was well, TAUPOK. Sorry NAIR! I poked her ass with my elbows. Ouch. And Andeline's elbows are effing sharp la. I was dying.

Ohwells, all the fun aside. Goodbye Shinyeong! I will miss you much. Really <3.

***

My nephew's walkinggggg! Ahh, so cute. He's practising all the time! Just now, at KKH, I held his hand and we walked. (LAME.) He actually stopped and peered into a shop. My sister better watch out, her son already knows how to shop. -grins! And I wonder how Mika'eel's brother or sister (I hope its a sister!) will look like. How excitingggg!

***

I miss training. I miss KNC. I miss the laughter. I miss the company. I miss my dear coaches. I miss the carnivals. I miss our long runs (not!). I miss tournament. I miss my teammates.

The thing that I will miss most when I leave Cedar, will be Cedar Netball. In fact, Im already missing it like crazy. ):

2007-05-28T21:10:00.000+08:00

Well, haha Mid Years were LONNGGGG over. :D

It didnt really go well. (: But whatever, its just a warm-up! O LEVELS!!

Yepp, 4i's SIX-POINTER CLUB! <3

Holidays. Books and more books. But I have to do it if I wanna reach my goal. Nothing comes easy. But one thing,

I MISS HOLIDAY TRAININGS! ): SOBSSSS!

They are the best really. Esp December ones, its just friendlies most of the time. When I gave out the training schedules to my juniors, I felt really weird and sad that I wont be joining them. I shouldnt have complained last time when soooo many trainings were packed in a month. :D

NSL yesterday. Ms Chng and Ms Vivien, asked us to help cheerlead for Arowanas. HAHA didnt really know whether it was effective. (: I cant wait for NSL finals!!!

I only have months left to the end of everything. Poots!

Okay whatever, you may have to stare at this post for as long as you did for the last one. (:

2007-04-28T17:16:00.000+08:00

Mid-Years in Progress.

but before that,

Happy Belated 15, Cherie Choo! (27/04)
Happy Advanced 16, SarahJ! (29/04)
Happy Advanced 15, Nair! (30/04)

and off I go.

2007-04-19T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hello again!

First, THANK YOUUU SARAHJ and SYIKIN and to some 4i mates who were concerned during PE just now. (: Thanks. Thinking about it, it did seem silly, but at that moment, it didn't at all. For a moment, I thought I was just going to l o s e it.

I think its all getting to my head. "This heat-oppressed brain."

NAPFA just now. 5 items. I tell you, it was the WORST NAPFA I ever had. Rather disappointed but its over and I can't do anything about it already. 2.4km next. "Its a question of Survival."

Mid-years are coming. Yes, I say this for every single post. It serves as a reminder for me. I'm rather exhausted. And this is just a REHEARSAL for the big thing. "How will I fare then?"

Its Sports Day tomorrow. Its time to go Green. Really heartening to see how 4I is so enthusiastic about it. We may not be able to contribute much in terms of gaining house points through the events, but we are going all out tomorrow and let the whole world witness our vocal prowess. All you gonna hear from our side is a big roar! "Feisty and Mighty."

I look forward to tomorrow. After Sports Day, its 4I lunch. Then, Nationals Finals. (: Then, team dinner! I miss them. When I see them train, I feel so oddly detached. And my heart aches. "Oh, how I yearn to join them."

Literature lessons never fail to freak me out. ): But Passion keeps me afloat. I will do it. WE can do it. "Analysis, Elaboration, Development." If only it is that simple.

And why do I alwayyyys fall sick when exams are nearing. Blah. I don't want to go through it again.

Ohwells, tomorrow shall be a great day. (:

"And make our faces vizards to our hearts, Disgusing what they are."

2007-04-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

Well, it ended a week ago.

but the memories will stay. i love bdiv o7 forever! my bestest team ever! (: <3

2007-04-07T20:48:00.000+08:00

2nd round is ending sooon. We won SSS by 1 goal and lost to Damai by 2 goals. Now, we are just ONE freaking game awaaaay from TOP4. And Tuesday is THE day. Well, I do hope all go well. (: Grahh, I must say Ive never expected us to get this far. But we did. And working towards acheiving this, the whole entire journey, it was just awesome. :D

Today's training was so fun! AHAHA. We trained at KNC. Played games like Netball Dog-and-Bone [introduced by Cherie as an alternative warm-up and the team LOVE it! (:] and Poison Ball. Wahh damn tiring please! During Poison Ball, once, Weishan and I were running in one big circle. And we just ran round and round and the others were busy passing the ball around to hit us. HAAH but they didnt get us! TEEEHEE! :D And then when Ms Chng was free, we did down-the-court. And I could feel our energy level going down,down,down as the sun bore down on us. DAMN HOT LAAA! So, we were alll looking forward to a nice drink after training but all the drinks in the vending machine was SOLD OUT. pffft!

Anyway, I dont know what is wrong with me these days. Like seriously. My fuse rating has decreased and I'm losing patience real quick. I feel angry for no reason. Well, maybe there is. Well, no one knows la. I just feel .... well, I dont know. Maybe, its just one of those times when you feel so lousy, and you try to pick yourself up but you cant. Or its one of those days when you feel so frustrated at things and it seems like as if people are out to get you. Sighs. WHATEVER it is, I do hope it passes soon. - prays

Mid-yeearrrs are coming. Exams - the greatest JOY of my life. D:

And the day that I Dread, its nearing too. ]:

Well, I've been thinking alot about the future these days. Where would I be this time next year? Laying out all my options. Well, I seem to know where I'm heading to. But on second thoughts, I don't really know.

Whatever. I shall just concentrate on our last games. (: BDIV o7 ALLLL THE WAY!

2007-04-01T16:01:00.000+08:00

Yays! Finally changed my blogskin! (:

Well, we're into the QUARTER-FINALS of Nationals! Our grouping consists of

- SSP
- Damai
- NV

WELL ALL THE WAY THEN BDIV! We can do it! This year is OUR year! <3>
Yesterday's training was HOT. Literally. The previous Saturday training was WORSEEE! SO MUCH WORSE. Ahhh everyone was dying. The effects of global warming .... sucks.
I've watched 2 movies with the netballers in a span of 2 weeks. Last week, I watched Haunted School with Nair, Xinyi, Shakila and Mokky. Quite scary but its quite stupid la. But we still got scared. LOL. Yesterday, I watched FREEDOM WRITERS with Jessie, Charlene, Nair and Xinyi. Its goood! So touching please. (:
NSL has started but I havent gone to watch any matches yet. Well, soon soon!
Mid-years is less than a month away. Im SO NOT prepared. Its okay, I'll start soon enough I guess. [:
Okay, I'll update some OTHER timeee. With the results of our second round okays! I pray that it will be GOOD. (:
ANYWAY, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SAFIAHHHH! (: and to all the other March babies.
~~I miss somebodyyyy. ):~~

2007-03-20T21:56:00.000+08:00

HELLO.

March holidays have ended. We watched TITOUDAO, played with United World College and trained for the Nationals. (:

Nationals are starting tmr. [: Go BDIV o7! We will go far okayy! <3>

It saddens me greatly when I think about what will happen AFTER Nationals. I would have to stop training and face the books. WHAT A LIFE. No trainings, no nothing. I really cannot imagine! I mean I've been training for years without breaks (save for exam breaks), and this year, after Nationals, Im going to stop training for good. )':

But ohwells, the time hasnt come yet. Thus, I shall do my very best for the remaining trainings that I have and enjoy the Nationals. (:

I love the song on my blog now. (: Im going to change the blogskin soon. I mean, look at the state of the current one. :D

"WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, MY FRIENDS.
AND WE'LL KEEP ON FIGHTING TILL THE END.
WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS! [x2]
NO TIME FOR LOSERS CAUSE
WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS OF THE WORLD!"

ahaha the above was dedicated to CEDAR NETBALL BDIV o7! ALLLL THE WAY! :D

2007-03-04T13:32:00.000+08:00

March holidays have ended. We watched TITOUDAO, played with United World College and trained for the Nationals. (:

Nationals are starting next Wednesday. [: Go BDIV o7! We will go far okayy! <3>

But ohwells, the time hasnt come yet. Thus, I shall do my very best for the remaining trainings that I have and enjoy the Nationals. (:

I love the song on my blog now. (: Im going to change the blogskin soon. I mean, look at the state of the current one. :D

"WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, MY FRIENDS.

AND WE'LL KEEP ON FIGHTING TILL THE END.

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS! [x2]

NO TIME FOR LOSERS

CAUSE WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS OF THE WORLD!"

ahaha the above was dedicated to CEDAR NETBALL BDIV o7! ALLLL THE WAY! :D

2007-02-26T21:22:00.000+08:00

i guess it wasnt meant to be. but good fight everyone! <3!

will be fighting for the 3rd placing this wed. WE WILL DO ITTT! im not getting that 'other shade of bronze.' the 4th placing trophy la. its quite ugly you know. and after that, its off to OAC! ahh my last camp. :(

for a moment just now, the foul weather was threatening our chances of playing. but in the end, we got to play in the indoors courts. they FINALLY use the indoors courts. tsktsk! to xinyi, nair and cherie! PLS TAKE CARE AND REST WELLLL! (: and bobo too! for her injured leg! aiyah everyone la.

anw, thanks to those who came down. it meant alot to us! (:

im quite sad that we're missing the 1st day of camp though. BOOS. my dearest HE/tower!

well, anw HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JESSICAA TAN! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARLIII! (:

ahh now. its amaths time. ohwells, see yall after OAC. (:

2007-02-23T20:28:00.000+08:00

hellllo im blogging again laa. (:

well hmms. on vday o7, it wasnt just about running around giving each other presents. for bdiv o7, our tournament playing days for this year is prolonged as we won fm and progressed into top 4, thus we are guaranteed a place in the nationals! :D soon, we will say goodbye to CCAB as we finish the zonals and maybe welcome KNC? for the nationals. YAYYS.

our desire to play in toa payoh sports hall has never been stronger. well, monday will be our crucial match. and i hope we will realise our dreams on monday! YES WE CAN DO IT! i dont want to miss the 1st day of OAC! so we shall fight hard on monday, win and play in tpsh, without having to miss any days of camp! YAYS. bdiv o7! we WILL do it okays! JUST REMEMBER OUR DREAM! TPSH!!!

hmms, OAC is in 5-6 days time? i dont even feel the excitement whatever. i remember counting down in my blog last year. (: pity, this year, its only 5 days. hey, thats like ONE DAY ONE NIGHT worth of activities gone. and the leaders tee this year, nyeh, i dont like the colours! ]: its not as if i have a choice. hahas. well, i pray that it wont rain so that we wont be stuck in the mph/dorms carrying out the wet weather plans! in any case, we are better much of in the sun, belaying, climbing etc. ahha im preparing to apply LOTS of sunblock. im not NIANG or whatever, its just that, you wont believe how HOTTTT it can be in the high elements area. its so hot, theres this burning, prickly sensation (if you can call it a sensation! :D), on your face. damn and i wouldnt want to experience it again. (:

the rest of the sec 4s will have a break while we are at camp! i seriously wonder how im going to finish the homework that they are bound to bury us with. ohwells, it will be my last camp anw. i better make it good. :D

and term one is endinggggg. then we will have the one week break. term two starts. MIDYEARS alr. whoo im just freaking myself out.

anw, im really scared for my literature. not only me la, possibly my entire class. we are seriously behind things! mrs foo and mrs rw has successfully scared me! aww man. and for SOB, we have missed around 3 lessons so far. its really horrible. i can even count the no of times mr sng came into our classroom for SOB lessons so far. and its not that many. but its okay, 4I LIT-ters, jiayou! yayys.

well, i have nth else to say. ahahah BORINGG! i know. but i think its high time i change my blogskin! ahhas.

RANDOM: I LOVEEEE TO SLEEEP! i wish i can sleeeeep forever! i WISH! :D

the next time i blog again, i hope we have good news! go BDIV! I LOVE YALLL! <3!

2007-02-03T20:52:00.000+08:00

yays we're into the 2nd round! :D

tdy's trng was really good. the atmosphere, the pressure - it was really real. it was quite scary i guess but it really pushed us. to those who are sad, SMILE okay! we can do it! (:

must thank the ncc girls for reintroducing the untangling game to me. its been long since i last played it. anw, the nballers played it tdy before warm-up. haha supposed to be running la but weili didnt mind. BDIV is pro! we always untangle ourselves really fast. ahha the poor cdiv has arnd 10 + ppl and had a really hard time. AHHA. anw, its a good game if you feel like molesting someone! ahha lol.

ive been so deprived of sleep these days. ytd, i finished my chem SPA early and i was really bored. so i decided to catch up on my sleep. HAAH. i slept after completing my timed assignment during mt. i slept after reading while waiting for mr goh to come in for physics. and i dreamt somemore! so i was really anxious to go home after my chem SPA. and when i was happily getting ready to leave the lab, mr chia told us that we had to repeat the experiment! )': and just take the readings. dont know for what la! WAHPIANG eh i tell you, i was so disappointed!

i cant believe we are into week 6 of school alr. so fast huh. sec 4 life is okay i guess. im beginning to enjoy doing work so its fine. all the tests are not counted. theres lesser pressure but still the motivation to do well is there. that's what education sld all be abt! ahaha okay what rubbish.

tournament - going well but we can do MUCH better. must thank everyone who has supported us. mrs yeo and mr sng came down for our gess match. hahaa mrs yeo so cute la, with her umbrella and all! ahahhas. mrs low is really inspiring too. and mr tay is going to talk to us this monday. :D well, i guess we really woke up after the gess match. with these people behind us, we really have to do our best. if we dont do our best, we will be doing injustice to these people and also ourselves.

YES, just 3 more matches! ahaha so excitinggg! my main motivation now is the thought of logging out during oac to play in the top 4 matches. and also whatever mrs low told us! yays we can do it!

okayss i must go now! haha i doubt ill be blogging again anytime soon but who cares. :D

2007-01-20T19:50:00.000+08:00

sorrry for not blogging for a really long time! esp to SUNITA MAGAR, my loyal blog reader. ahahas. (:

anw, almost a month of school has passed. erms, not bad. coping quite well. and im beginning to get my work discipline back. and im darn happy! :D

zonals has also started. GOOD START EVERYONE! bdiv won henderson 29-16! cdiv won crescent 30-0! both were really good wins and im sure everyone worked hard for them. i wasnt there to watch the cdiv match but the bdiv match was SUPERRR! cdiv, you've proved yourself! SEE! YOU ALL CAN DO IT! (: continue the good form people! we will achieve our targets this year! we definitely will! :D

anw, i realised that the 3rd&4th placing match is on 28th Feb. which clashes with the 1st day of OAC. and the the FINALS is on 3rd March which is most probrably the last day of OAC. wahh so cool man! i wantwantwant to get to into top4!!! but oh, its quite sad, since i will miss obstacles then! wah ok, we only finished our first 1st round match, and im talking about this. ahah but nvm, its called looking ahead. :D

due to the unexpected wave of the stomach flu bug gg arnd at home, i missed 2 whole days of school + refresher + training. im dead laaaa. missed so much. im gg to have a hard time catching up. but for now, everyone is well alr. it all started w my nephew ahah and everyone got it after that. but it SUCKED big time la. yucks! but thankfully, this experience wasnt as bad as my last one. PHEW.

i feel really bad for missing out on our last SOB lesson. when my group is supposed to teach the class the story "We Look After Our Own." yeah we are making our own notes for SOB. and it will be distributed to the whole class unlike last year, when mr sng was the one making our notes. and this year, we have to bring soft toys for SOB lessons. (: ahaha my teddy bear's dirty, thanks to ppl like PARVEEN NAIR. who sat it on the lid of the toilet bowl and dropped it on GRASS. grah i screamed at her. aahahas.

aahaha i think i get annoyed quite easily this days. over so many darn things. and ANNOYING PEOPLE SHALL BE IGNORED! :D okay no im just kidding. i wont ignore anyone. lol.

okay end of post! looking fwrd to the next match! GO CEDAR NETBALL! (:

2006-12-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

hello! (:

whoa okay so trainings have ended for the holidays. im quite sad since trainings filled up my holidays. and now that its over, i have to face other things like HOMEWORK. grahh mind you, i havent really been progressing in this particular department. (: ahah i fell asleep while doing my social studies [the weather was really cooling and shiok thus Sleep beckoned]. woke up and started on my amaths [havent even finished my ss]. did some questions, got bored, and here i am, surfing the net. ahaha.

speaking of which, my internet connection is UNBELIEVABLY slowwwwwwww! i CANNOT STAND IT. ahhh. its one of those things that i hate alot! i realised that i can be quite impatient. i hate it when things run slowly. with the exception of slow jogs la. AHAH i love slow jogs! (: ahah but too bad, i cant afford to jog slowly these days, else we would get screamed at! :D

ahaha i was digressing. so yeah, i dont know whether i can finish my homework. school is starting in less than a week time and i still dont feel the urgency to finish my homework. if this carries on, im going to be DEAD next year. well, i do hope i change.

ohmy its really scary. school is starting. SEC FOUR! tsktsk.

well, the second last training was really zzzz! we had a 40 mins run and well needless to say, MOST of us died. though it was okay after that. hahas. ytd, we had friendlies w st margs and commonwealth at knc. we were really hoping that it wont rain. because ALOT of friendlies has been cancelled due to the rain. and rain = training in school = RUNS! ahaha after the 40 min run, everyone was kinda freaked out la. and thank gdness, it rained only after the friendlies! YAY!

well, they have faith in me. so i should have faith in myself. thanks everyone for the encouragements! i will do my best!

i cannot change the circumstances. i have to change MYSELF to suit the circumstances.

well now, im torn between the idea of whether i should get a haircut or not. i get really scared when a haircut is due. because im really scared that the haircut will go wrong! ahahah. okay dumb la! sheeesh!

somehow, i cant wait for school to start. cause i miss trainings & the netballers. really amazing, how this holidays has really made me feel more attached to the netballers. well, maybe its because, we had to deal with so much drama together. hahah. but more importantly, I MISS IGNITE! really alotalot! thats why i just cant wait to see them all. i shall hug everyone on the 1st day of school! ahhahas. well, i will have to embark on a long and arduous journey [sec 4! haha] with these people what! i dread the journey itself but with all these wonderful ppl to accompany me, now, i cant wait. (:

BUT now, its back to that pile of shitty homework. BYEBYEEE!

2006-12-15T21:04:00.000+08:00

ATTITUDE.

everyone knows the meaning of it but no one really understands what its about. such a simple word yet its so difficult to figure.

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grim faces and heads hung low. i felt so helpless. everyone was just like :

but come what may, we'll move on. everyone will.

jiayou everyone! <33

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AHAH my hiatus only lasted for a day huh! hahaha but i think i wont update much after this! we had been training at knc for the past i dont know arnd 5 trngs or so? cause they were all friendlies! hahah so when i went back to school today to see mrs low, i felt quite weird. cause its been quite a long time since i went to school haha. and mrs low wore braces! ahhas!

netball camp next monday. its not even overnight! damn pathetic la! and it will be a whole lot of friendlies again. hahahaa. nvm im not complaining. whoots it was damn funny at kfc today. NAIR wants me to blog about this! ahhahs.

cause we kidnapped charlene's phone. and stupid NAIR she went to hide it at her errms most sensitive area AHAH. so charlene called her phone in an attempt to locate it and it vibrated! hahah so imagine nair! she went mad okay! cause charlene's phone was vibrating THERE THERE THERE! hahah wth! we cldnt stop laughing la. tsk NAIR! =P

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oohs my nephew big now! (: its really exciting to watch him grow la. and its just so heartwarming whenever he smiles or laughs at every little thing. it makes you laugh too! sometimes, i can see what he sees in his eyes. cause his eyes are just bright and i can see a reflection of things around. and now i know why he always smiling, cause what was reflected in his eyes was the perfect, simple world. he sees things for what it is. no complications at all. i wish we can all still do that. if everyone is like that, the world will be a happy place. but obviously, human feelings and emotions are hard to understand.

and sometimes, our feelings and emotions go beyond control. and thats when i hate it. all the nasty feelings, bitchings, unhappiness will start to come in. but hush! i shall not say much cause its not as if im that perfect. :D

but what if, everyone just realise that we cannot get everything that we want? that the past is the past and theres little we can do to bring it back. sadly, there is this tendency for us to keep comparing the past with the present. lessons can be learnt but when is the correct time to let go? why not work with the present?

questions that will never ever be fully answered. but its okay, even if i dont get the full answer, as i go along, ill pick fragments of it and piece it up together.

i realised too that people can really be difficult if they want to. this is when we try with all our might to be patient. as for me, i keep raising the bar every single time. patience, patience. but hey, there's a limit to everything.

i keep searching everytime. where have i gone wrong? what should have been done? and i know i cannot lose my grip. so im holding on.

"all the demons and non-believers, will you defeat them?"

YES I WILL!

and so will everyone else.

-END-

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its been a really random post. and pls no one sld get offended or wdv pls! if you get offended or think im talking about YOU, haha pls slap yourself hard. OKAY KIDDING. ill just laugh at you cause im not referring to anyone. just the release of some of my pent-up feelings. whoots, theres SO MUCH that i can hold inside, know. (:

LAST NOTE: CEDAR NETBALL, HOLD ON DEARS! WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER. LOVE! <3

2006-12-13T19:17:00.000+08:00

HIATUS! :D

2006-11-23T18:37:00.000+08:00

hmms ltc o6 is over in a blink of an eye.

NOT TOO LONG AGO, i was in the campers' shoes. (: haha seeing them attempting all their activities, memories of ltc o5 rushed through my head. falling at nitro crossing (it was so embarassing pls!). STILL regretting that i wasnt able to try ANY high elements at all. ahaha how i got SUPER high at 'The Walls' and i wanted to try the walls again this yr but the ldrs said that its boring.): (although me and jiayuan tried to jump up onto the wall. needless to say, we didnt make it. [: ) our campfire item! (there was one grp this yr with an item that has a concept similar to gryphon o5's item. HAHA.) bathing times! once sarahteh and I were the only ones left in the toilet and we started talking to each other so that we wont be scared. and there were leaders outside and they were pretending to be our groupmates and me&sarah talked to them, thinking that there were our grpmates! AHAH. how i always DREAD meal times. i still do anyway! (:

and manymany more.

ltc o6 was veryvery different. well, things change, dont they? i have to admit that i was rather sad and disappointed with whatever happened. but we just have to take it in our stride. (:

DAY ONE
started camp on a very bad note. campers had their tests and then obs dept went to the canteen to mark the test papers. i nearly died marking just ONE group's test papers. now i know how teachers feel. AND after that day, i think i will have to rethink about my ambition of wanting to be a teacher. (: but we had a good laugh at some answers. HAHA. mean but wth.

ACT 1 - HIGH ELEMENTS!
i was at hanging logs with chaili. (: ahhaa i took SO LONG to set up the station as the rope just wouldnt get through when i was changing the runners. initially, all the obs leaders were setting up on their own and then everyone had problems with their runners. one by one, their runners got through and i was still standing there, pulling and pulling, cursing silently. HAHA. in the end, jennifer, geraldine, wanning and other ldrs came to help me. we pulled and pulled and used all our strength and it FINALLY got through. ahaha i was so damn happy la! and i alr got siginificantly darker even before the act started. i was just setting up! sheesh. i think my wdv pigments are too reactive! but i was just glad that we didnt drop any runners. (: after that, we just belayed. its fun standing there, encouraging the campers. it mustnt have been easy for them, thats for sure. well, i still wonder how its like to be up there. HAHA.

ACT 2 - ANALYSE AND CONSTRUCT
obs leaders were free so we sat in the canteen discussing about PT and wrote silly stuff on masking tape. AHAH. "I AM THE ULTIMATE SEDUCER!" ahaha supposedly meant for karen, but jennifer got attacked with it too. and somehow, the next day, i found the tape on jessica's notebk! AHAH. i thought we had thrown it away. grins.

suprisingly, leaders debrief wasnt too long. in fact, we had expected to stay up until 3am but it didnt happened at all. PHEW.

DAY TWO
i was under ORIENTEERING for this day.

ACT 3 - TOWER/ROCKWALL.
did rockwall with karen, jiayuan and yanyi. was in the shade! HAHA. i flew forward two times. and nearly flew up once. luckily, karen braked the rope on time, and i was left on tiptoes. ahaha but it wld be cool if i was suspended in midair man! ahahhas. karen reached the top too! ahhaa i was belaying her halfway and i realised i wasnt wearing a helmet. WHOOPS. i totally forgot can! until i felt my bandanna flapping against the back of my head. then i was like "OHMYGOD! IM NOT WEARING A HELMET!" but karen was alr halfway through so we just let it be. mr chan was okay with it so yupp. anw, i had faith in karen. AHAH i knew that she wouldnt fall down halfway and cause me to fly right into the wall cause jiayuan, my back up, was reliable too! (: so that was it. we finished early. mr chan wanted jiayuan and me to try climbing but we refused. [i dont know what made him think that i can climb so well. AHAH] so we asked him whether we cld try bouldering. AHAH since no belayers or wdv were needed. but i shall not blog about his reaction to that. its just ahhaa ... unusual. (: so we tried climbing the low.e walls ourselves. didnt make it ahhaa. and played on the see saw plank and the nitro crossing.

ACT 4 - BREAK
if i was in obstacles, i wld have been in the sun for another 3 hours. haha but since i was in ORR on this day, ACT 4 was free for me. so weishan, elyssa, yanyi and me went back to our dorms to sleep. yanyi and elyssa slept relatively well i guess. ahahah i TRIED to sleep and rest. but campers outside were busy screaming "CLEAR RUNWAY!" and "RUNWAY CLEAR!" since the runway was very near the dorms. therefore, i couldnt sleep. tried to close my ears and not be distracted by their commands but i finally deemed it too troublesome and gave up. then i discovered that weishan was awake! so we went to walk around. yayys. ahha and now, the windows for the dorms are nettings. so i watched the ppl at high elements through the netting. funny really, cause i heard someone saying "EH A FACE!" when they passed our dorm. aahah i think i suprised some ppl walking past our dorm. and lyana was jealous that we cld have some shut eye. HAHA. then me and weishan saw the ldrs attempting the challenge pole. jiayuan and kelly grabbed the trapeze. -CLAPS. kelly was damn funny. "WTH DO I DO TO GET UP?" or sth like that. i was laughing like mad from the first aid base. YES, i cld hear her loud and clear from there. AHAH.

ACT 5 - X-ing boundaries
was with weishan at the restaurant. hmms was quite bored waiting for all the groups to come. then suddenly, THREE groups came at one go. suddenly, we were overwhelmed. ahaha some cluecards were on my notebk. ahah but they found it. the thing was cut short by the pending rain. we had to jog back to the campsite. man, they nearly left without me and weishan. ahahah we saw everyone starting to walk back alr as we were coming down the slope. ahhaha if we had left the restaurant a bit later. ahah.

ACT 6 - CAMPFIRE
well it rained so campfire was held in the MPH. ohwells i shall not say anything. but the leaders came back. and then, i realised that i missed OUR leaders alotalotALOT. but sadly, we couldnt even like talk to them or something. we didnt even had the chance to perform our item. at the end, the leaders [as in us] were just utterly pissed and sad [for me haha]. i dont even know why. sld have seen the faces of everyone during debrief. lol. well i dont know, with the leaders around, everything that happened, all the changes, just became crystal clear to me. i couldnt help comparing how it was then and now. suddenly, i was just overwhelmed with sadness. AHAH wth but the dams in my eyes were on the verge of bursting la. maybe i just moodswinging since i was having youknowwhat then. but it all felt very real.

DAY THREE - LAST DAY
aahha nothing much i guess. [: but ohwells big sweep, break camp etc. yeahh.

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that was ltc. ahha i know this update is REALLY SLOW. but i saved an unfinished draft of this post a long time ago and i decided that i might as well finish the entry. HAHA. but whatever it is, i love the OALs! :D when time comes, i figured that i will really miss setting up and stuff like that. well, one last opportunity to do it. and i better make it a good one. (: for now, its post-mortem stuff.

NETBALL

on the last day of camp, we had a friendly with stc. tired but we still went for training. if not, there will be like more than 10 ppl not around for training la. like that, how to play right. ahahs. only played for 1 quarter since it started pouring soon after. but we stayed back to watch the seniors coming in for prom and stuff like that.

ohwells. had ALOT of friendlies recently. carnivals and stuff. consecutive trainings. well, all for good measure i guess. :D in fact, we just had 6 quarters with punggol ytd. glad that sec ones are improving and stuff. thanks for the crane! (:

chalet this friday! YAYYYYS! (: but wth pls, we need to complete 14.4km as a punishment for not keeping our netball diaries. we wanted to run 2.4km for 6 trainings but ms chng said that it will be too easy for us. AHHA so now, we have to run 4km for around 3-4 trainings. sighs save me, ive never ran 4km in one go before. BLAHHHS.

but its okay, chalet the next day! and we will probably take quite a long time to complete the 4km, so maybe we wont have to do the slope sprinting thing. AHAH but with ms chng, we sld expect the unexpected. ]:

and i sprained my freaking pinky finger AGAIN. grahh.

okay bye. watch HAPPY FEET! its damn cute! (:

2006-11-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

OKAYS IM BLOGGING! [:

hmms so many things happened since the last time i updated. mwaha. aye whatever la. anw, we just had lessons for the past week/weeks. i like logic gates! yayyes! [: i think its like the physics version of SETS which i like ALOT. hahas. glad that i alr caught up with all the lessons that i missed due to ltc and stuff. today's chem lesson was the the funniest. for more details [in fact, for all the details.], refer to MRS JEREMY's blog. (: jessica, i hope the name that i give you is NOT outdated. (:

WE HAD AN ADVENTURE JUST NOW! hahahaha. involving 8 igniters, a squirrel, two dustpans, a school attendant and mr chia. AAHHA. and i just discovered that sarahj is really caring. AWWW.

also, the LY/LEE/LI family! im FRILLY. i dont know why also! it was created during our WASTED recee. we were supposed to have recee at labrador park last week i think but it was pouring like mad. so, we sought shelter in LAC. we had nth to do as mp only had to talk to some ppl. so, we were playing some game la. thus the family was created! anddd the campsite is SO NICE now!

speaking of LAC, ltc is coming! this monday la. SO FAST HUH. after this, we'll only have refeshers, OAC and poof it will be the end of our journey as an OAL. and next year, it will our last year in school.

EH WTH am i thinking about this huh. the Os have not even ended. sheesh.

ohwells. just do not want the holidays to end. ]: wait, it cant even be called a holiday.

so many things to do, i dont even know what to start with. hahas.

carnival at rgs ytd was fun. but now, ahha trainings has become rather demoralising/worrying these days. GRAHHS. really confused now la. but wth, im KEEPING MY SPIRITS UP! improvement! [x infinity!] another friendly tomorrow. yays able to go cause i have no lessons! cause 3i only has bio tmr! hahaa. that means sunita wont be alone. but it means that only 2 sec 3s will be there! ]:

i want to watch CASINO ROYALE!

ohwells. THATS my update! [:

OH DO TRY MOO'S SOFT COOKIE SANDWICH! ITS DAMN NICE! you know, the one with ice cream in btwn 2 oreo-like cookies, youknowyouknow! ITS DELICIOUS! YUMMS!

2006-11-03T17:26:00.000+08:00

hmms O's are over. (: im just hoping for the best la.

my first training back was whoots horrible la. just plain horrible. HAHA. from now on, it will no longer be easy. [:

anw, i just love spending time with the OALs. HAHA. a few days back, arnd 13 of us had a mini field cooking session with miss poon. my cooking partner was NISHANTHI! hahaha omg both of us were hopeless man. haha but still the dish that we cooked still turn out well. (: then after that, we went to play basketball, volleyball and soccer. haha suria & sharron tried to get sarahteh's shoe stuck on the basketball hoop. ahaha in the end, sharron [ACT ZAI!] succeeded. hoho la. i couldnt stop laughing most of the time. and those present discovered a different side of me! (: HAHA. and ohmygoodness, the board has so many scandals! AHEMS.

ahaha and i really love obs! <3!> yayys! in fact, nearly the whole dept [except for lack who was in kl i think] turned up for the field cooking session. ahaha and we won the bball game! [although kathleen preferred to stone! AHHA!] hoho. and i never realised how even simple things such as hooking on/locking karabiners can make me so HAPPY! (:

conclusion is: i just love the OAL board. greatest bunch of ppl! <3

i love my teammates too. playing silly games to waste time after training. ahhaa eh whoops. its not wasting time! its called bonding! (:

ohwells. these are the ppl who make me force myself awake in the wee hours of the morning and haul my lazy ass off to school. [:

andddd 3i'o6 is 4i `o7! SCARY. but its okay. IGNITE IS <33! (:

and screw blogger la. how dare you eat up half of my post. $%&*&*!

~~enough was said. but i still see that shadow of doubt lurking behind your eyes. i think ill never be able to forgive you fully ehs.~~

2006-10-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYAAA! (:
maaf zahir batin! salah silap harap dimaafkan! :D

tomorrow is the last day of school. OH BLISS. but theres still malay O's. and the holidays arent much of a holiday ANYWAY. ahh who cares.

belay school today and tomorrow.

IM DAMN HAPPY PLS! AHAHHA. [this is not related to belay school la. -.-] STILL HAPPY ANW. :D

bila kita mencintai yang lain.
mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar.
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah sayangku akan hilang.

OOH JIWANG!

2006-10-16T21:40:00.000+08:00

today was such a ~~joke~~ man. SAKITNYA HATIKU! ]x

yeah i did end up bitterly disappointed[haha.] for some papers. basically, i didnt really meet my own expectations. but then again, i think my expectations might be a tad too high at times but anyways.

i think the most heartwrenching thing is to fail by a FEW marks. sighohsigh. failed two freaking papers that way. ooo i just felt like slapping myself hard when i saw them [but of course i didnt]. anw, i was just damn shocked when i saw my malay results la. ahah cant say much but lets just say it was damn shitty and im terribly worried for malay O's now. WHOOTS.

anw, thanks SYIKIN and NISHANTHI for entertaining me throughout the entire thing. aahah. syikin was so amused at some shitty results and she was just laughing and laughing. ahhaha but thanks ah, i managed to laugh about it too. esp chem. OMG! okay it was rather hilarious seeing the ridiculous marks that i got. TSKTSK. and nishanthi! HAHAHA. :DD!

and azizah scared me la! she was like "do you have tissue?". and we were like "no. why you want to cry ah?" and she was like "YEAH." me and nishanthi were like OHNO! but luckily she didnt la.

TWO more papers tmr! greattt.

OHWELLS MUU! cheerup! lets just laugh about this but still take note of all the mistakes made. i was really glad that i didnt cry just now, though at times, i really thought i was going to burst alr. mwahahs. maybe perhaps, i am looking at things in a different perspective. or maybe, im just living in denial. haha whoots.

wells, i guess thats a question that only i have the answer to. :D

meanwhile, i shall just ponder, reflect, think and LAUGH! how to laugh? read JESSICA ARNANTA TJUNG'S blog! thanks ah! :D

YAYYYS.!

p.s i cant believe training actually got cancelled because of the haze. hahah actually i dont think i wld have lasted long in the haze. after playing half court for a while, i felt really tired man. HAHAH. might be the haze or just due to my lousy stamina. HEES.

2006-10-15T18:23:00.000+08:00

HELLOWELLO!

the past few days were just refreshers and remedials. whoo we tried abseiling from the top of the rockwall. ~~DAMN SCARY LA!~~ omg. i reallyreally freaked out. the scariest part was getting our legs over the ledge there. and i was like AHHHH. cause i cant even see what im stepping on and i was just clinging onto the ledge and didnt dare let go. HAHA. stupid lah as there were ropes and stuff attached to me. but still! i kept thinking that i will drop down and die if i let go of the ledge. ahaha.

ooh the flying thing too! mwahahas.

cant wait for dreams and teams camp! yayys.

anw, went some hari raya shopping ytd. gosh the geylang bazaar was super packed! but i dont care. we werent shopping there anw. just happened to pass through it. :D bought some stuff which i still cannot believe that i bought. [ITS NOTHING ILLEGAL LA OKAY!] and sunglasses! ahaha for the coming camps. yayys.

I WANNA WATCH THE MOVIE 'HEART'!!!! its some indonesian movie with a very nice theme song. and it looks like a very sweet movie to me. and everywhere i turned, i saw the vcd yesterday! blahhh. its okay, my sister said that shes gg to get it! YAYYYS!

and i discovered that one of my baby teeth is loose! ahaha damn slow la. its been long since i had a gaping hole among rows of teeth.

alamak lah. training is starting TOMORROW! gosh im doomed. :\ stamina is like down the drain [not that i had much in the first place! :D]. AHHH SCARED LA. really dont know what she will make us do. and the trng schedule looks packed. haahah. ohwells.

getting back papers tmr. hmms. i know i screwed some papers and did okay for others. BUT THEN AGAIN, no use harbouring high hopes. at the end of the day, i might just end up crushed and bitterly disappointed. actually, i dont even know why im so worked up over EYEs this year. of course, i hope i will get promoted lah. but i have to constantly remind myself that my ultimate goal is afterall, the O levels, so as to ensure that i dont get TOO worked up. and that this exams is just like a stepping stone along the way? and i DID get TOO worked up. so much so that i fell ill. if just preparing for EYEs is THIS bad, i wonder how i'll fare when the big Os come along. but whatever la.

talking about Os. MALAY Os are coming. gosh did another school's prelim paper and it was BLOODY DIFFICULT la. i felt so helpless then. HAHA. cause i was like thinking "OMG. SHIT IM DEAD." cause i realise that i do not know alot of things. and that theres many things that i have to prepare for and brush up on. and all i have is around 2 weeks? well good luck to me then, considering how packed the next 2 weeks will be. :

anw, GOODBYE SEC 4s! good luck for Os! (:

p.s. HELLO NAIR!!! (:

2006-10-10T20:27:00.000+08:00

HELLLLLLLLLLO! (:

im happy,very happy. [: cause exams are over. yeah lah, im a slow pok! but what matters is the fact that its over. YAYY.

the exam period felt like a month ehs. when it was only a freaking week. anw, i fell sick real bad. like fever the entire week, stupid runny nose and i even lost my voice. mygosh. used up so much tissue during the entire period. but anw, im okay now. HAHAH and i can be heard alr. just in time for ltc meeting. mwahaha.

anw, THANKS SYIKIN FOR YOUR STREPSILS! THANKS MARLI FOR THE WHOLE PACK OF TISSUE! THANKS ESTHER FOR YOUR GREEN BEAN SOUP ADVICE! [ahah it worked.] and THANKS TO ALL 3I PPL AND OTHERS WHO WISHED ME WELL. [:

i have a confession to make.

i LOVE doing science papers! hahaha aint they fun to attempt! esp chemistry man. haha but physics is SO not fun when i have no inkling at all about what im supposed to do. hahha typical of me. [:

hmms ltc has started. wonder how the next months will be. yayy refresher today, tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow! haha.

anw, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TAY ZHIYUN! [:

okay BYE. haha.

2006-09-22T22:02:00.000+08:00

OH NO. im falling ill. ]:

my nose is running and i cant catch it. and freaking sorethroat. eurghhh.

english paper just now. i just froze when i saw the options for compos. in the end, i did question 1 - LOVE. hope it was okay anw. when i told my mum about my compo options, she was like, "LOVE?! WHY YOU IN LOVE AH?" hahaa yeah right.

AHH the major pprs starting soon. VERY SOON. -CUE FREAK OUT!

annnnnd the fasting month is beginning soon! yayys. can save some money! annnnd SI THE FINAL SHOWDOWN! GO JON! <3

anw, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ADELAIDAAAA! [:

sighhs. okay bye i must continue chasing my nose. if not it will run even further and i wont be able to catch it at all. BYEEEE. :D

2006-09-16T19:47:00.000+08:00

YES im updating(:

FIRST week of term 1 has passed. DAMN SLOWLY! ohwells. but im grateful for it as then i will feel like as if i have more time to prepare for EYE. haha.

flag day just now. ayeee totally no mood la. but many things worth remembering happened!

- this old man who was eyeing my can. then i asked whether he wanted to donate. and he did! hahas. and after that, he dug into his pocket [i thought he wanted to look for more coins. and i was like thinking that he was so generous!]. haha but in the end, he took out 2 sweets! ahah and gave it to sher and me. YAYYS.

- rested and played at some playgrnd in bishan. and i kept asking nishanthi whether she thought that i wld be able to bump into joakim around that area! AHAHA. and i saw the new bishan library. HAHA I KNOW IM SLOW LAAA!

- was eating at j8 kfc. me and yiying were dicussing about this certain teacher in our school who looks ALOT like kungyin. we both know kungyin as he was initially from my primary school but he then transferred to yiying's school in p4. ahha then we were like talking. and then suddenly .

yiying: EH ISNT THAT KUNGYIN!
me: - turned around and observed the guy she was referring to. EHHH. YES ITS HIM!

damn freaky la! we were talking about him and suddenly he was like THERE! and he has grown so tall! haha.

- was heading back to collection pt to return the cans. when we stopped by the place where they were having the project superstar audition. this old lady suddenly took shermaine's can away from her and started asking for donation! hahahahas. and poor shermaine was so helpless. haha and she asked alot of ppl okay and they ALLLL donated! piangs. and she even asked sher to top up the stickers on the can. and she wouldnt stop! aahah in the end, we took away the remaining stickers and sher told her that there were no more stickers left. gosh. it was quite scary in a way but the old lady was very kind eh!

ohwells. that was MORE OR LESS my flag day. hahaha the last one was better lah. went to tp library to study. in the end, sher and yiying had to leave. so left charis and me. i finished my physics ws and just talked w charis the rest of the time cause she had to leave too! ahah and in the end, i went to tampines library and studied alone. and GUESS WHATT! i like it! it was damn productive la. i was in my own world and was just totally absorbed in my trigo graphs! hahaha ANW I LIKE TRIGO GRAPHS! (: okay random. ahaha zi bi-ing in libraries is goooood! i shall do that more often. YAYYS.

HAHAH WHAT A BORING UPDATE. but anw i shall still continue. (:

read today's strait times? abt the beijing-lhasa express thing! wahhh i think its so cool! like travelling in a train in high altitudes. like literally gg through the clouds or sth! AHHH I ALSO WANT! hohoh crazy la. the whole train ride is like 48 hours. and why wld i want to go to tibet now? hohoh. i will just ride it in my dreams lah.

anw, for SI. its down to JON and HADY! AHHH JON IS SO SEXY MAN! aahahaha. marli and safiah agrees! [: ill be rooting for him! yays.

okayy la. this wil be my update for now. will not be blogging so frequently!

SEEEEE YOUUU ~~SOOOOOON!~~ <3

2006-09-05T15:50:00.000+08:00

okay ill start blogging again, yesyesyes? (:

i want to change the blogskin. but i cant find a suitable one. sheeshh.

anw, ITS HOLIDAYYYS! yayys. but exams are coming. boos.

OPEN HOUSE 2006 was great(: did crowd-managing w estee. at the AVT. there wasnt really a crowd lah. just had to err manage them when they come for the principal talks? and the following scenario always happened.

PARENT: How long is the talk?
ME/ESTEE: 45 minutes. (:
PARENT: HUH! WAH SO LONG AH! :O

haha that kinda thing. then me and estee will try not to laugh. mwaha. but actually, we sat in for one of the talks. it wasnt THAT long. the Q&A session was probably the thing that dragged the session. but anyhows, i had fun. slacking in btwn the talks [nothing to do whattt!], koping souvenirs from all the booths and all that stuff. yays.

AND OH JOAKIM IS OUT! %^*$! damn it la. for once, i thought he sang really well and that its really worth supporting him, he had to be out! boohoo. my mum and my bro all teased me okay. and SARAHJ even called to laugh at me. TSKTSK. i was so sad! ): okay but its not as if i voted so its okay i guess.

ayeee. okay so its like no use watching SI now cause there is no one's performance for me to look fwrd to. okay maybe only jonathan and paul. the other two, lets just say im not really interested in them. : SIGGHHHHS.

and OH. my nephew has learnt how to roll over! -CLAPSCLAPS! i admire his persistence in trying to get it right! he has been practising and practising non-stop lah. then once, when he just rolled over. he vomitted. haah then i was just about to clean it when he rested his head. ahaha his face landed in the pool of vomit. eee gross or what lah! evil me, i cldnt stop laughing [but hey, i helped him!]. ahha and he looked so confused. probably because he couldnt see due to all the vomit covering his eyes. haha aiyoh. and hes starting to laugh like HAHAHA kinda thing. and not just grin and grin.

did i say that hes such a distraction! haha whenever im supposed to be studying, ill end up playing w him. but its okay lah.

hmm okay theres training tmr.

and poor steve irwin. ):

okay then i guess ill end here. will try to blog more often. yays. BYEBYE.

2006-08-19T21:41:00.000+08:00

HIATUS. (:

2006-08-18T21:26:00.000+08:00

HELLLLLLLO! (:

firstly, happy belated birthday LAI YIYING!
secondly, happy advanced birthday FONG LI CHU!
thirdly, good luck LI MENG! have fun in UK man. (:

okay done. EH SUS. looks like its not "goodbye my lover." YET! ahahhas.

whats with the environment these days. freaky la. that super HEAVY rain the other day. with the wind blowing so hard that the rain was like slanting and hitting onto the windows. water even seeped in through the small gaps btwn the window panes. but the fun thing was, my row, that was nearest to the window, all joined the other rows in the middle of the class. and we were all clustered there. and i think i quite like that arrangment. like theres sooo many ppl arnd you. i just felt well, comforted, amidst all the scary rain that was freaking me out. GEEZ. -smiles

there was also that swarm of bees/hornets/whatever. was doing emaths and i got bored and i saw the whole swarm hovering near the staircases there. told sus. and soon everyone spotted it. and started gasping and stuff. ahah then it flew twrds our side of the block and well windows were shut, ppl were screaming, running into the classrooms. come to think of it, it was rather funny. then the attendant sprayed sth at it and it flew away. just to find that it has flown over to the OTHER side of the classrm. tsktskk. but ohwells, that was quite an experience. hehs.

hmms on other stuff. i must say that i was quite disappointed. and the waterworks just started. hahas. all the stuff mounting i guess. anyhow, THANKS SYIKIN AND ESTHER. (:

i hope i wont be let down this time. haha all these stuff has made me tooo scared to hope.

CI is also over. totally worth it lah, that 3-4 hours or so in the comp lab. i nv left the computer and me and marli were totally freezing after that. our fingers become numb haha. and it was so painful. acks. and to the rest of my grp members, good job man! (: all the hours toiling was not wasted. man, i felt SO FREAKING RELIEVED and HAPPY and SATISFIED when i finished the thing. but then, it didnt really turn out to be how we initially wanted it to be, but who cares right. hahahs but how i wish he didnt have to rub it in lah. haha ass.

ohno flag day tmr. i totally dread it. just the other day, i saw all these rows of ppl standing at tampines interchange, holding out cans, looking so pathetic. i thought then, "oh no im gonna be like these pathetic ppl." they just look so pathetic and SAD as ppl just walk past them like as if they were invisible. like they were nothing but mere air. and they were soo many ppl doing flag day in one place. that if i were to donate to one, i wld feel guilty for not donating to the rest cause they wld be able to see me donating to that one person. OHMAN. ahh okay nvm its for a good cause, afterall. so i guess, its worth a try.

then maybe, i can go see the SI contestants at TM after that. HAHA. the opportunity is just to good to miss lah. its like so near my hse, if i dont go, i think ill regret lah. but then again, being my usual fickle-minded self, i might not go afterall. haha it sucks lah. having to squeeze with so many ppl in that constricted amount of space. yuckks. and i doubt i will get to meet them cause i cant be bothered to queue. and because of who i'm supporting, ppl might just kick me in the ass if they find out. HAHA. but HEY, if you read this, and you figured out who it is, pls do not really kick me in the ass. cause i DO NOT contribute to the unfavourable results HOKAY! hahah waste money lah. hahas.

actl, i dont even know why i want to go. just want to have some fun before hitting the books again for next week's tests. AIYER. and it wld be interesting to meet them in person i guess. HAHA.

I CANT WAIT FOR SEMPTEMBER HOLIDAYS!!!!!

really fast eh? it seems to me as though the june holiday JUST passed. but its actl like 2 months ago. then, the september holidays will FLY. and exams will start. malay 'o's. full-speed trngs. fasting period. hari raya. results maybe. december holidays. 2007. sec 4. WHOA.

but ohwells, enough ramblings lah. SHALL GO SLEEEEP! sleeping is such bliss dont you think? i LOVEEEE to sleep. (:

WHY DONT YOU JUST DROP DEAD?

2006-08-10T13:33:00.000+08:00

0808 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY YATI!

0908 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

1008 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY DHILSHAD!

2006-08-05T22:07:00.000+08:00

i love august. (:

had a good birthday. HEHS. still rmb last year's one. was swamped w tests and even had 2.4km run on the same day. but this year, it fell on thursday = TOP was on wednesday = no more tests! [for the next week or so!] = FREE LIKE A BIRD. -grins

today was such a freaky day. had to get up early just to go make my i/c. BLAHS. and the photo turned out HORRIBLE. mygdness. told my sis , "its okay. i will have to change it anw." and she replied, "YEAH. when you turn 30." haha thats like in 15 years time. thanks lah. haha.

saw so many ppl from evps today. like everywhere i turn, i will see someone that i know. and it freaked me out badly. saw dharshini at ICA. saw dee too. i laughed when i saw her cause this must be the 4th time or so that ive seen her at tampines interchange. haahs. and barely 2 minutes after ive seen dee, nishanthi walked past me. HAHA. i was like "HUH!" and she looked quite suprised too. plus so many random cedarians and my pri sch teacher too. oh thats just why i just hate to walk through tampines interchange.

haha dont get me wrong. im NOT anti-social. i just do not know how to react when i see all these ppl esp my primary schoolmates.

but then today my eldest sis followed us too. to collect my nephew's passport. [can you believe it. he is barely 3 months and he already has a passport of his own. tsk] and when we saw my primary school teacher. this was what happened.

TEACHER [to my mum who was carrying my nephew]: Is that your youngest child?
MUM [totally bewildered]: haha NO. this is my GRANDSON.

i just had to laugh at that.

and some random old friend of my mum whom we saw today thought that i was the eldest child! by then, my eldest sis has alr gone home. so it was just my mum, second sis, younger bro and me. AND she thought I was the ELDEST among the three. hahas wth man. my second sis is like NINE freaking years older than me and i was still perceived to be the elder one. HAHA.

ironically, MARLI thought that my second sis was my mum and that my mum was my grandmother when they both came for MTP ytd. ahhah. MARLI is so amusing.

speaking of MARLI, i get reminded of yesterday's CHEM lesson. which was so hilarious! gdness. that must have been the FIRST crazy and funny chem lesson. salute charis man! ahahhas.

MASS DANCE on national day. HAHAHAHAH. i cant wait! [:

okay i shall stop here. to think i was actually contemplating to close down my blog just now cause i cant be bothered to update it anymore. tsk.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KRYSTAL AND NURIN!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JESSICA SHEN AND DEEEE! [and to the manyyyy ppl born on 0408(:]
HAPPY BELATED BELATED BIRTHDAY TO NICOLE AND ME! hahah(:

more birthday dedications coming up ehs. ahah see i told you i love august (:

2006-08-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

EMATHS AND CHEM TESTS ARE OVER! (:

OAL hierachy out today.

OBSTACLES DEPT: 1st i/c - WAN PING! , 2nd i/c - JENNIFER , attached - KATHLEEN, KAREN LO, WEI TING and ME!

hoho. still rather shocked lah. but its starting to sink in alr. yayys! shall make the best out of it and not disappoint the leaders. yayys. for the full list, refer to BARBIE's blog. yays.

trng was ohman. plain tiring. eeyerr. must start running alr. =x and i just had to sprain my ankle today. boos.

OOH I CANT WAIT! :DDD

2006-07-26T22:07:00.000+08:00

i dont know just wth is WRONG with me these days.

i have just been in a daze, a blur. in class, words and numbers come clawing at me but sadly, they cant seem to penetrate my clouded brain. its like everything is blocked off. it just bounces off this invisible wall. its like a freaking bomb, just waiting to explode.

sometimes i just feel like stopping. but i know i cant. not yet. and i cant seem to shake it off.

please, let it not be like how it used to be.

gah i hope what is predicted wont really happen for real. i will be really upset if it does. wont be the only one, im sure. but right now, the possibility of it NOT happening is just too slim. but its okay. been through it once so i can pull it through again.

~~who am i kidding?~~

THIS WILL ALL PASS. soon.

on a lighter note, RHD was a blast. [: oh i cant be bothered to upload the photos lah. :\ to people like ahem BEEVI, just ask me online lah. [:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAYS TO JIANG YING, CHARLENE, JOAKIM[HAHA] and XIAO XUE.

2006-07-17T20:27:00.000+08:00

so a day when you've lost yourself completely.

could be the night when your life ends.

CONGRATS TO CEDAR BAND! (:

LISTENING COMPRE IS OVERRRRR! whoo yay. no more worries till october. [: it scares me big time. all these major exams. tsktsk.

been playing with KUKU's ping pong ball in class. and i nearly got caught twice today. but actually i dont see anything wrong with playing with ping pong balls in class. its not as if i throw them around. but anw thats not the point.

#1 : CHEM lesson. was attempting some chem qn [which i was obviously CLUELESS about]. so i was thinking and bouncing the ball on the table at the same time. and mr chia suddenly went, "EH. who's playing w the ping pong ball ah?" and i freaked. he was so faraway from me and the sound produced was so damn soft but he still heard it! tsktsk.

#2 : PHYSICS lesson. was learning about centre of gravity and stuff. i STUPIDLY tried to balance the tiny ball on one finger [trying to figure out the cg lah supposedly] and it dropped. and it bounced on the floor. and mr goh saw it. paiseh lah. i wont ever try to balance stuff on one finger anymore.

cant you see that i have absolutely nothing of proper content to blog about. ahah i bet you can. :

nothing will ever be the same again. everything is gone. and i dont think it will ever return.

2006-07-12T21:49:00.000+08:00

its already the 3rd week of term3. TSKTSK.

finally had the long-awaited pizza hut outing with the pariahs + safiah. after postponing it like so many times. haha okay i never felt so contented before. HEHS. i love food lah. [: i THINK ive been eating too much junk these few days. with so much food at home, i just cannot resist the temptation. but ITS OKAY!

the weather has been really good these days! it just rained at the most appropriate times! when we desperately need the droplets of water to fall down on us, it will do so. for example, during jogging periods! (: annnd its so cooling during trainings. HAHA i like. pray the weather will be kind to us again tomorrow!

i think when i sit with susmitha, i really cannot stop laughing at times. but stupid bugs will keep flying in! like that BIGGG green bug yesterday. the 3 of us at the back totally freaked out. and that eraser/tissue balls/toy chick fight during english. ahhh so fun! and mr lam is so funny lah.

i think i might abandon my blog soon. ahah no interest/mood to blog. :

JOAKIM !!! [: hahah so charming okay!

that was random. but he rocks what.

burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate,
the lives of everyone you know.
and whats the worst you take
from every heart you break
and like the blade you stain
well, ive been holding on tonight.

^{standing on the rooftops,}

EVERYBODY SCREAM YOUR HEART OUT.

2006-07-03T20:06:00.000+08:00

that small english-malay dictionary has been my faithful friend for the past few days. but since last friday, i have dumped it aside. i guess when the time comes, i will befriend it again.

stupid malay o' level orals are freaking OVER! thanks cikgus for telling us just 3-4 days before the real thing. tsk. but its over and it went well so i am no longer pissed with them. yays!

the physics test was horrible! mr goh will blacklist me alr lah.

annnnd my nephew has gone back to his home. SOBS. i guess i will no longer be disturbed by his incessant crying in the wee hours of the morning. but now i have nothing to look forward to when i go home! bleahs. ]:

i think he looks like a fisherman or whatever with that thing on his head. tsk. but ohwells. come august, i will be a happy kid once again! bwahahas.

ooh new seating arrangement! SUSMITHA is my new partner! [: im so glad its settled okays.

you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost.

2006-06-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

if only EVERY training would be like friday's one. i wld be the happiest girl ever alive. [:

cause all we did was to play bonding games! i likeeeee bonding games. :DDD so fun! AGAIN, i was in the same group as parveen nair. we played treasure hunt, WATER[and flour and sugar!] GAMES and double whacko! hoho i realised that we are always playing treasure hunt. :D

THE BEST was of course the water games. it was something like that blind sheep game but with water+flour+sugar balloons to burst! and thanks to people like sunita magar, i got wet even before the game started. (: and we had flour+sugar on our wet hair. hoho what a combination. we ended up playing with water when we were supposed to be cleaning up. HAHA. that was what happened during netball camp two years back i think. :DD the opportunity was just too good to miss. hehs. and ms chng didnt mind eventhough we used part of training time to clean up. in the end, there was too little time to train, so we played double whacko. YAYS.

so actually it wasnt really a training but waddehell we had fun. [:

we played bball again today! hoho we seem to be playing alot of bball during trainings nowadays. but still i likeee it. and sunita fell down twice lah! hahaha. once, she fell down into a puddle of dirty water! the next time, she fell down when she was twirling or dont know what lah. lol.

so, it has been decided. BLAHHHS. i cant do anything now. lets just wait and see. :

oh crap. theres only ONE WEEK left. ahhhhhhhhhh. im not looking fwrd to the new term.

and oh YAYYY. joakim got in! -CLAPS (:

2006-06-15T15:33:00.000+08:00

this whole thing is just ridiculous.

i wish i didnt care. but i do.

anw, i think JOAKIM rockkkkkks! ~~dont you think hes cute!~~ (x i hope he gets in. (: laalalala.

2006-06-11T14:55:00.000+08:00

the last training was fun, i must say. ive learnt that

- SWEAT is SALTY. yuck. okay i didnt mean to taste it.
- MEDICINE BALLS are evillllllll things.
- i ALWAYS end up in the same group as parveen nair for stuff. TSKTSK.
- SINGING helps when we're doing dreadful stuff. [duh of course, singing is my ~~forte~~. COUGHS :D]
- BASKETBALL ROCKS! (:

hoho yes. ms chng made us play basketball for the last part of training. -BEAMS. i immediately whooped with joy when i heard her. (: haha and ms chng commented that we were much quieter without the sec 4s. HAHA.

now, im aching all over.

over the few days, ive acquired a new skill too. MASSAGING! okay its only sports massage lah. acks. and my mum kept asking me to massage her. and the pysiotherapist who taught us the stuff, drives a REALLLY nice car. ohmy. i think our jaws just dropped when we saw her driving past us.

i figured that all the occupations that ends with an 'ist' at the back [eg. gynaecologist, physiotherapist, physiatrist, specialist etc.] make some kind of big money. -sighs

then five of us - [suni, beevi, sharon, safiah and me] went bowling. we spent so much time trying to find an alley that has available lanes. i totally forgot that it was a saturday. i like the sound that is produced when the ball hits the pins. there will be this sense of satisfaction that i feel. (: and i quote beevi's mum - "... bowling your money away."

i laughed when i heard that. its apt in a way. we should be able to bowl for free. i shall go have a BIGGGG house in future and have a bowling alley , a library, a swimming pool, netball/bball courts, a big soundproof room BLABLABLA. also, a car like the physiotherapist's. (: and my family can all live with me and i can invite friends over and we can all play ALL DAY without the need to fork out any money.

what wistful thinking. but of course , i can have that kind of house. i can always dream about it.

okay back to REAL stuff.

then it was NSL FINALS! VIPERS vs STINGRAYS. oh so exciting. SHARKS could have the ones playing in the finals lah. they won marlins but lost to stingrays in the preliminary finals. BOOS. ): but nonetheless, it was a rather exciting match. i was rooting for VIPERS cause everyone else was supporting STINGRAYS. it was a very close match for the first 3 quarts. the last quarter was rather boring cause it was obvious that STINGRAYS were going to win. the match concluded with the STINGRAYS emerging victorious by around 10 points over VIPERS. ohwells.

HARH. IF ONLY.

ohcrap. its dreamweaver tomorrow. YUCCKKK. and training(:

GOOODBYE. [x

2006-06-03T16:18:00.000+08:00

today's NSL semifinals! GOOD LUCK SHARKKKS! (: hoho actually no, its good luck JANICE! (:

ohyes ITS HOLIDAYS! shalalalalalalaaaa!

the last day of school was quite exciting. ronin came over to our school. (: and we got back our report books. ahh i had calculated it wrongly. so, its actually better than what i thought it was. phewww. hmms i still have to work harder.

recently, there was a 'class party' over at miss mel. tan's house. hoho but it was such a pathetic turnout. cause only FOUR people could made it. they were sus, syikin, jesiska and me. haha but anyway, i discovered that im totally deprived. i realised that ive never played manymany kinds of boardgames. i think i have only played erms monopoly and scrabble [if im not mistaken]. we all played RISK at miss tan's house. haha what a game! (:

anyway, i think its such bliss to be a baby. i mean you can't do much as a baby, can you? all babies have to do is cry when they're hungry and when they're full, they will go to sleep. WHAT A SIMPLE LIFE. i want to be a baby too! -bawls. this is a result of being an overzealous aunt. (:

hmms as we grow, i guess things get more complicated.

ooh trainings are starting soon. [:

for some reasons, i do want school to reopen. but for some other reasons, i dont want it to reopen. BLAHHS.

SIX months has already passed. i wish Time would pass by slower. it scares me sometimes to see how fast time really flies. -shakeshead

REPLY TAGS
yasmin: haha src was retarded pls. (: and yes, bowling!!!
weishan: ahah yes the bibs dried on time. (: how was thailand?
charlene: yay joscelin rocks!
tsuwie: linked(:
marli: HAHA you and your ZOO TOILET ! tsktsk. must be influenced by LOOLOO. tsktsk.
jesiska: HELLO! we shall play risk again sometime. HAHA. hopefully, we wont be so suay anymore. :]
theFORGOTTEN: gohweilingggg! eh bball rocks what! (:
dhilshad: haha HELLOHELLO! haha no cannot. SSHHH! (:
sus: -grins
nicole: HAHAA. (:
sarahj: hoho yeah, we played risk! (: ohman must we really do that thing. bleahhs. okay shall say HI to him (: you know what, he doesnt cry anymore when i carry him :DDD

oh whoops. not really a nice colour combination but nvm.

(:

2006-05-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

i conclude that i like basketball! (:

yay first, it was bowling. now, its basketball! more things to do during the holidays then! (x

that FIFTEEN MINUTES must have been the worst time in my entire life. -covers face-

tmr is the last day of school. THANK GOODNESS! finally, a break. (: seriously felt like throwing and kicking objects during two particular periods today. but obviously, i had to restrain myself from doing so, and i resorted to tearing pieces of paper. gosh. but its okay, at least im err, practising proper anger management. haha.

SRC carnival is in two more days! GRAHHHS. okay go axis! (:

i shall reply tags.(:

nursa: HAHA(:
yasmin: YAY. lets go bowling again!
sarahj: HEH. joscelin yeo = PRONESS. (:
theFORGOTTEN: hahah i like the talk ! haha dont talk rubbish lah you. [x
tsuwie: HELLO! (:
abs: YAYYYS. yes bball is fun (:

ahha. i think my reply tags are retarded.

heres a sentence for parveen nair, since she requested for it. (:

whats left of me?

2006-05-21T13:33:00.000+08:00

okay so dumb. i accidentally deleted all my tags. TSKTSK. i can be such an idiot at times. ohwells, i should have known that long ago. (:

ytd was NATIONAL YOUNG LEADERS' DAY. so we went to some convention at the max pavillion. and there were awesome performances and 5 different speakers giving speeches. i still think the sound system there is DAMN GOOD. no wonder they hold concerts there rather often. haahs okay random. but anyway, one of the speakers was JOSCELIN YEO! ohmy. i still cant believe that i actually saw her. HAHA.

anw, shes cool. (: like the way she talks and everything. shes inspiring too! bwahaha. i think her speech was the one that i could relate to the best. i didnt quite understand the last speaker's speech cause it was like peppered with chim words and his slides were chim too [like 'domains of leadership' OHMY].

okay im sidetracking. joscelin spoke about failure and setbacks. and that success is a journey not a final destination. and how there is hope whenever we try. cause when we try, it means that we still have hope for that particular thing. i totally admire her discipline. she has this internal thing that helps to motivate her and to push her all the way. and there and then, i told weiling that i wished i could be like joscelin yeo who do not need to rely on external factors to motivate her. really, how many of us can do that. how i wish i was THAT disciplined.

ahahh i still remember posting this:

"everytime i watch tv , there will be this trailer on channel 5 abt joscelin yeo having succesfully garnered 40 gold medals. i think shes damnit PRO !

i salute her. (:"

- 05/12/2005

so naturally, i was deligted to learn that she would be one of the speakers. (: im just glad that i went for the convention.

we had the fun moments too. [dont really know if this would qualify as fun though. haha] around 15 sec 3s were there and we went to changi airport during the lunch break. we were running late when we were heading back to the event. so we ran all the way from the EXPO mrt station to the max pavillion. and it wasnt all that near. obviously, we attracted lots of weird stares from people around us. HAHA. and people actually CHEERED for us as we ran past them. they were like "GO GO GO! RUN FASTER!" bleahs. thank goodness, we made it before the event resumed.

had a good time and ill remember what ive learnt. (:

meanwhile, i think its back to the pile of emaths and amaths homework.

2006-05-19T18:14:00.000+08:00

cross-country this year was so crap! (: most of the netballers decided to slack this year so we did. but the part at the expressway seems much shorter today. haha so i had a nice time walking and running and sprinting only at the last part. but i felt so guilty. ACKS.

anw, congrats to ADEL, SHER AND GUO MENG! wooots cause they were in the top 20! (: and FADILAH, please take care! (:

then, suni, beevi, charlene, jessie, charis, weishan and me went to eat. and then, some of us headed home while the rest of us went to bowl. YAY i like bowling.(: i think its so relaxing. haha

haha like as if anyone wld be interested in all these crap.

ohoh anyway, i finally saw my nephew! (: cause he and my sister came home ytd! AHHHH SO CUTE! i cant stand it! but he cried when i carried him. i was so heartbroken! -PIANG- can you hear it? oh maybe he was hungry at that time. ahha. okay rubbish.

SRC is on next saturday! and its in the afternoon. ohman i dont want to get sunburnt like last year. that was the first time i got sunburnt and i was so excited. lol. and to think it was in the morning last year. tsktsk.

BYEEE. what a redundant post. (:

2006-05-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

MACBETH play is history. ill miss the rehearsals. (:

anw thankyou to the rest of 3i! (: they ponned the DNA course for awhile just to watch us. although they got chased out in the end. hahas. i was so DARN HAPPY when i heard them cheering for us. (: and i was so touched seeing them all feeling so troubled that they couldnt be there to see the play. YAYY 3i rocks pls (:

oh im OFFICIALLY an aunt. ((((((((((: see how happy i am? yayys! but im sad cause up till now, i still have not seen the baby or my sister. ive only seen photographs! PATHETIC man. and the rest of my family have seen the baby like so many times ! ahhhhh im so irritated now thinking about it. -grumbles sighs. im such a busy woman, you see. hah okay, i DIDNT say that. (: its okay, i shall be patient and wait till both of them come home. yay.

i was initially rather contented because i had expected something worse than that. but looking at the people around me, i know its not enough. and then of course, it just hit me again. well, i never seem to be able to stay contented for long. something will always come along and shatter it. the security it initially provided has been snatched away. i know that i cannot run away or escape. perhaps, this is how it will be for the next 2 years or so, whether i like it or not. i shall take it positively. i shall not be demoralised. but i shall look at them and say, "Hey, i can do that too."

and i believe that i can.

sometimes, when i thought that i could finally sit down and heave a big sigh of relief, something will come along. its just a dreary cycle that seems to go on for eternity. when will all these stop? i wonder.

it is back and its troubling me greatly. i do not want history to repeat itself please. those times were horrible and i do not wish to go through it again. once is enough. but no matter how hard i try to fight it, it still persists. day by day, it gets worse. it startles me sometimes. sighs only a certain handful will know what im talking about anyway.

this has been a random post. and thus i shall end it randomly too.

MARIA ROCKS! (:

2006-05-15T21:36:00.000+08:00

hello.

chem pract makes me HIGHHH. we did titration AGAIN ! but im glad that i managed to do it more times this time. (: and i think the solution is temperamental. ): my readings differed so much. HAH. maybe its my fault lah. =P

ms phua is gone = ms leong is back = harder for me to get through emaths lessons from now on
sighs. i pray HARD that it will all get better.

the dentist is so violent pls. and i think dentists are such funny people. they talk to you nicely, talking about all sorts of crap like what you wish to be when you grow up [laughs at syikin] and yet at the same time, her hand is moving, scaling at your poor teeth. as she talks, she seems to be ignorant of the pain that she is causing you to sit through. of how you gripped the sides of the chair so hard. of how you are trying so hard not to scream or cry. how i wish she could have been a little gentler. at the rate she was going, i was so afraid that she would pluck out my whole tooth totally as she was scaling [or whatever] it. i wouldnt be suprised if my tooth had flown out of my mouth just like that.

and the taste of blood was just so ..... disgusting.

i hate the feeling of having so many things to do that i dont know which one to start with. :

and some idiot apparently took my money away from my wallet. -shakeshead yeah it was my fault that i left it on the table. and to think that i was just outside the freaking classroom the whole time. and the next thing i knew, all the money was poof gone. im pissed because this is NOT the first time someone stole something from our class. like really, there has been so many cases already. first it was stuff like textbooks, now its money. sighs.

but like my mum said, it wasnt meant to be. so yeah, its just too bad. im just ~~worried~~ for the class really.

and when i came home. i received another piece of shocking news. my sister has already been admitted to the hospital. cause i think she was already experiencing pain. and she was supposed to go to the hospital for a checkup only and she ended up being admitted. i seriously did not know what to feel when my dad told me. i was obviously shocked at first. and questions ran through my already muddled mind. like whether she was okay and stuff. and then it dawned upon me. that the 9 agonising months of waiting will soon be over. and i can now look forward to seeing that little bundle of joy whenever i come home. (: its only for a few months though.

come to think of it, i think i will miss my sister being all fat and chubby. HAHAHA. (:

it is only like 2 days away. goodluck to us.

~~what are all these suppose to mean?~~

2006-05-12T13:27:00.000+08:00

M.I.III with sher and sarahj on wednesday! (: haha JONATHAN RHYS MEYERS! (: but sadly, the movie wasnt really memorable. i couldnt really remember what happened throughout the movie. guess i was just staring at the screen with other things occupying my mind. but nonetheless, we had fun! (:

post exam time! not that we sat for any exams in the first place but its a good change. while the bio students of 3i are busy extracting DNA or whatever in the lab, the lit students were either doing props for the play or camwhoring. or like marli who was in her own world with her royal purple scarf. haha. and nicole who became a butterfly for a day. as for me, i was busy playing with my camera and stoning most of the time. and worrying over slogans, forms and the full dress rehearsal.

rehearsal. i think it was all written all over my face. that i was scared and nervous. A&I were the last classes to take the stage. it was so nerve-wrecking watching the other two classes perform before us. and then our turn came. and we pulled it off nicely. except for the part when i suddenly laughed and choked on my 'wine' and couldnt say my line properly. i was totally awed by sarahj's and girija's acting. they were superb. (: relief washed over us as the curtain closes.

but afterall, that was only the rehearsal. the real thing is yet to come. its less than a week away.

i guess it instilled a new sense of hope in us.

but im still rather saddened by the fact that the rest of our class wont be there to support us. its such a pity. ):

the baby cot arrived. this just heightens the anticipation. (:

club trng tmr. and after that its NSL. (: i havent watched a single match at all. tsktsk. okay i want to see SHARKS! (: yay okay i cant wait.

miss phua left us already. good luck to her! we havent been exactly nice to her but theres nothing that we can do now. miss tan is leaving us soon. then we'll have to adjust to the different teachers yet again.

i think its back.

2006-05-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

"If a bird can do it, so can you." -MR RONNIE GOH.

pe was fun! snr chan didnt come so jnr chan took over. we play MOVING CAPTAIN'S BALL. as in the captain can move lah! (: our grp that consists of syikin, shruti, yiying, charis and me ROCKS! (: hahahh.

lit rehearsal. ohmyfreak im freaking out rather badly. if im going to freeze just like that on that day itself, im dead. ohyes, SOPHIA LING. pls takecare! (:

oh i love chem! (: "EH , take out the funnel! how many times must i say." - MR CHIA. this will serve as a reminder for me. (:

after school. lichu, sus, sher, shruti and me went to chu's hse. to watch romeo and juliet [two star crossed lovers HAH]. HAHA. again. and obviously shermaine lou was so agigated at the silliness of the two main characters. AHAH. had a fun time laughing and HAHAing at all the the silly stuff. and how we found certain stuff so illogical and we laughed at it. and leonardo dicaprio is HOT. (:

ohwells.

2006-05-07T13:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BITHDAY TO GC AND JANINE! (:

ahh so we didnt get to play whatever we want during pe on friday. ): we had to play volleyball. goodness, i cant play volleyball for nuts. ahahha i keep hitting the ball sideways and thus, it flew all over the place. poor charis, she had to pick up the ball after my many futile attempts to hit the ball over to her side. and poor girija, i accidentally hit the ball into her face. hahaha. i think im a hazard. :\ and girija was like saying "GO AWAY . DONT COME NEAR ME." to me the whole day. and i couldnt stop laughing. SORRY lah. (: i shall try not to injure ppl on monday and shall try to hit the ball properly so charis wouldnt have to keep getting the ball and we can then play proper vball. YAYS. (:

yayys im glad that my ankle is better now. i apparently strained/sprained/twisted [i dont know the difference btwn them lah] it when i was , well, doing stupid things. i was acting drunk. but EH, i wasnt acting drunk for fun okays. it was for a reason. (:

and it got worse when i did pe on friday. and i had to miss club trng and limp all arnd the hse. great. but its better now. thanks to my mum and bro. (: but now, my ankle is looser. and when i rotate it, this 'crack' sound will be produced. to my mum's horror.

and ytd, my auntie treated us. YAYS. i dont know why but all the adults in the household are suddenly treating us and giving the kids [like me] more money. yes i know i sld be grateful. i am! (: but it must have been because of the progress package. thank the government for it.

yesterday was polling day! so exciting. suddenly everyone emerged from their nooks and crannies to complete a very serious task indeed. i figured that if there is an election in five years time, i would be be one year short of the qualifying age. and thats damn sad cause then, ill have to wait for another five years before the next election[if any] comes along. ): then stayed up to watch the results. and so many votes were spoilt lah. such a waste. it could have make a big difference to the results. and i learnt that even the president have to vote. haha i didnt know.

and i was asking my mum. "i thought the president lives in the istana. which constituency can it be in?" and my mum was like, "he doesnt live in the istana lah."

damn it. i feel so silly. all this while, i thought the president lived in the istana. and i thought the candidates wouldnt have to vote. how ignorant can i get.

why am i so excited abt the elections anw. hahas. and my mum, dad and second sis refused to tell me who they voted for. they said, "voting is secret." fine lah.

for some reasons, im dreading tomorrow.

2006-05-04T19:05:00.000+08:00

it was such a horrible day. ): dannng it. everything was just WRONGG.

started cramping up in the morning and i was crumpling up in pain the entire day. got back the physics test paper. honestly, i was so shocked. not to mention being super disappointed. and the demoralising thing was that everyone around me scored with flying colours. its not their fault lah obviously but i really felt like tearing my paper up. how i wish i could. but wdv lah, its over and theres no use fretting over it. GRR.

and everything really went downhill from there.

that was so embarrasing okays. yes it was all in the name of fun but really it just worsened my mood. i wish i could dig up a hole right there and then and hide forever. arghh.

emaths test. if only the hands of Time are able to move slower. there was so little time and so many tedious sums to complete. needless to say, i didnt finish it.

i thought we would be gg to the lab again during chem. but we didnt. i was dying to carry out the titration experiment again. was looking fwrd to it the whole day. but in the end we didnt do it. i like lab lessons. all the panic and excitement. it gives me an adrenaline rushhhhhh. (: and i will feel so satisfied and accomplished after the entire experiment. i like that feeling.

then we had lit rehearsal. which was good! (: sadly, sophia couldnt make it for the rehearsal. but nevertheless, i had fun! whats with sarahj and her lightsabre. girija and her superb acting skills and the many tips that she can offer us. susmitha with her beeeeeg grin. haha and manymany more. i cant wait for the play. it will be a success. (:

pe tmr. YES! (: lets hope that mrchan will let us play on our own again. and the grp of us can happily play basketball and get all exhausted by laughing non-stop. (:

i really hope my sister would give birth FASTTT. any time now. (: i reallyreally cant wait for that day. it will be so exciting. its okay i shall be patient.

anw, thankyou ESTHER UE! (:

tomorrow will be a better day.

2006-04-29T21:14:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAHJ !!! (: <3333

yayy long weekendd! (:

aahah yes im very happy that i survived through ytd ! (: it was a loooong day and i couldnt wait for it to end. okay for the first time, in many months, i didnt feel like sleeping during SS. haha HOORAY. (: and trng was okay except for the last part. oh what do you expect.

weili + extra time left before end of trng = torture

whats more, we havent been doing conditioning for a long while. therefore, we were all grimacing in pain. some were whining. others were grumbling while doing the stuff. [ahaha i think that includes myself. i was muttering and muttering nonsense as i did the stuff. haha was trying to motivate myself lahhhh.] but ohwells we pulled through. and suprisingly, i didnt suffer from any muscle aches when i woke up today! (: now i know what to do after launges/lunches [? whatever lah]. SHAKE YOUR LEGS VIGOROUSLY. ahah helps to release the tension in my leg and relax the poor overworked muscles. oh so i think so. (: i shall do just that next time.

then today , went for club trng. frankly, i was rather nervous on the way to sch. ahah but the trng was fun. very productive. (: but pity, it was so humid. gahh i couldnt breathe properly and by the end of trng, we were all soaked. aahah and i was so amused by the snrs.

annnnd, i saw chiam see tong! haha okay BIG DEAL. ahah he was gg arnd in those lorries or wdv it is. but i was in macs and so i couldnt hear what he was saying. he looked quite different in real life eh.

those election lorries has been gg arnd lots lately. on friday, we were all so excited during lessons cause we cld hear those lorries gg arnd. it must have went arnd that area like 4-5 times. but i wasnt sitting next to the window so i couldnt see them. but i finally saw it after sch when i was preparing for trng. CHEAT MY FEELINGS OKAYYY. i thought it was the candidates themselves gg arnd in the lorry, speaking. it turned out to be a recording only. damn it. got me so excited for nothing.

haha . dont even know why im so excited. like mr goh said, its not as if WE are the ones voting. lol.

OKAY BYE IM HUNGRYYYY.

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

2006-04-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

we all saw a rainbow today! (:

hahah it was a very pretty and perfect one at that! (: it was so big and magnificient! it was a complete semi-circle that extended all to way to the ground. the 7 colours cld be seen so clearly! ahhh what more could i ask for! it was definitely a great way to start my day. (:

ahaha yes okay, i never fail to be thrilled to bits whenever i see a rainbow. the last time i saw a rainbow in spore was probably when i was in p5. but it was a very faint one. (: nth can ever beat today's one! (: sighsighsigh, i wish i cld just stand there and stare at it until it disappeared. but obviously, i couldnt. it was just .... so perfect. (:

but of course, life's not all abt rainbows and pretty things. it didnt turn out to be such a good day afterall.

salts reactive violence tamtam pianist bang blood darkness suratkiriman focal length books worry itchyfingers food instandnoodles prasad hungry contented delusions wonder diplomacy awake mindmaps bandagedmarkers asean negative positive upwards downwards nonsense confused madlingkuku crazylaughingfits negative10 gradient graphs pulldown failures guilt helplessness moregraphs homework cancelled macs moreworry prove conflict brokenlink ireallydislikeyou

i really do hope that i can survive through tomorrow. will be tough but i must try.

hello sickening graphs.